I wanna go..!

Posted by anandini at 04:22 AM on June 3, 2008.

I walked down to get some juice and cookies, and saw my gundu face up on the hostel warden's post. I've got mail...!

And upon opening it, I was smiling ear to ear.... though slightly disappointed as well. Very disappointed in fact...

Elaine and Ian's wedding invitation. And I cant make it! Hhhmmm....

Im so sorry, girl. Truly. Haih...

Anyways.. TT's not so bad today, so far. Hope it stays sane.

I think I sense the arrival of the anacondas soon, coz my entire insides are spasming up.

Goodnite all. Have a wonderful day tmrw. 

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Murleen Nambiar.

Posted by anandini at 11:23 PM on June 3, 2008.

I wish Murleen turns up real soon. He's been missing for 7 days now. Ukraine aint really all that safe of a place for a foreigner to go off wandering around.. especially late at nite.

His friends are going thru so much looking for him, so are most of the Malaysian Student bodies, MOST of them I say. Some of us have done our mere lil part, though I cant say the same for many. Many are even entirely oblivious to what's happening, and since they have no clue over anything at all they take wonderful pleasure upon spreading horrible rumours they've heard from they equally unreliable sources.

We had a lil Q&A session with the Uni Admins and some higher authorities. Students were called upon to at least show they moral support. Even that, for some, was just too much to ask for. Pretty saddening to say..

It's true that Murleen walked out due to certain personal issues, but it has been too long and we're all worried. So stop spreading crappy rumours, stop just looking out from your windows, stop being so damn oblivious about the whole thing. Instead, do something.

And pray. At the very least, let's just pray for his safety.

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How come?

Posted by anandini at 01:57 AM on June 4, 2008.

I wish I can build a wall around me, and lock myself up away from everyone.

I understand that everyone has fugly days once in a while, I do too. I understand that everyone's tired after studying all day or at class or whatever. I understand that it's normal to have crazily effed up mood swings, I have em too.

But how come I always appear to be the monster? The one who's always wrong? The one who always says the wrong things...?

When I've never once meant any harm. When you know deep down I care for you, and love you with all I've got. You're family, and I hate it when things are shitty like this.

Im not a bad person, I know that as a fact. Im not. So stop making me appear as one.

I too have feelings, y'knw. As effed up emo as it may sound, I too am just human.

If you're my friend, you'd understand all of these. 

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Devastating news.

Posted by anandini at 05:05 AM on June 6, 2008.

They've found his body. Yesterday, over the shores of Evpatoria.

I dont know details yet, so Im not gonna assume and speculate.

The DNA test has yet to be done, and some of us are hopping upon a tiny gleam of hope that it may not be him, somehow. Coz apparently the body was beyond recognizable. Only document which led to him were his clothes, his student card, his phone and his keys.

So, it may not be him. Hopefully.

Let's just pray shall we.

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i'm stupid

Posted by anandini at 02:26 AM on June 10, 2008.

muahahahahaha.............i'm bodoh!!!

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Im not stupid

Posted by anandini at 04:40 PM on June 10, 2008.

The post below is either Dheepa's or Via's work. Stupid people..!

Exam's tmrw. The last of the last. Therapy, Surgery and Obs & Gyne. Im dying. Just this close, yet so damn far. I just wanna get it all over and done with.

His body may be flying back today, his dad's here getting all final documents done. The CSMU community managed to raise 20k Grvs, which I believe is some what enough for most things.

Bless.

Pray for me ya'll. 

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Ballessness

Posted by anandini at 01:47 AM on June 12, 2008.

I just saw this. A comment regarding one of my recent post.

Comment posted on June 10th, 2008 at 03:22 PM
Well,as i know,many indian like to suicide.n murleen maybe one of them.and stop blaming the goverment n embassy for his death.it's exam month,n why the fucking hell he went to ephatoria.(oh..just want to search for peace).hey murleen,u suppose struggling for your exam n prove to your parent.

 

And this is my reply to you, I've decided to post it up, as to reply a comment and to include all I had to say would somehow seem too lengthy.

1. Good day to you too.

2. Your English is horrendous.. you should be highly ashamed to call yourself a doctor, or at least a soon to be doctor. Or anything along the line of being in a professional line of work.

3. You're a racist to say that most Indians take their own lives. Where have you been living? The ice ages? Look again my dear friend, look wisely.. in your very own homeland.

4. We do not know for sure if he committed suicide, or otherwise. Dont you have the least humanitarian respect upon those around you? Or perhaps you're just too low of an imbecile to even know what that means.

5. The Malaysian Ambassador to Ukraine has let us down deeply. You know that too, so stop denying it. Even the Pro-Rector (Vice Chancellor) of CSMU can get down dirty looking for him at wee hours, why couldn't our dear Ambassador or his officials contributed as well, instead of merely issuing commands here and there, which may I say was useless any how. There was even an extent where someone called the Ambassador's mobile and his wife answered and said 'Please stop disturbing my husband, he's asleep'. Need I say more? No one has blamed the Government or the Ambassador to Ukraine for his death, if we're capable of blaming the Government for everything, we could have solve the issue of Global Warming years ago (!duh). We're just merely disappointed over how the Ambassador has failed us.

6. As about why he went to Evpatoria, being exam season and all.. well, we dont know for sure exactly what had happened to even conclude anything. So why are you going about making ridiculous assumptions? What he or anyone for that matter, do in Ephatoria is up to their own rights. Who died and made you god?

All I can say, albeit the whole lot written above, is that who ever you are.. you're a mere dickhead. You've got no balls to even openly comment, as to comment anonymously is just down right gutless. If you've really got so much to say.. reveal who you are!?

You're insensitive, and you dont deserve the rights to be a life saver. Honestly. Stop studying, and just go back home and bang walls.

Murleen Nambiar was found dead. His parents, family, close friends and the majority of CSMU community are truly saddened and taken back. Even if you did not know him personally, as I too had not, for you to even have an opinion as such is purely thoughtless, to lightly put it.

If I were to one day find out who you are, I'll look down upon you with such disgrace, you'd prune up like a rotten rat.

I believe majority of the CSMU community disgraces you as well.

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The After Math.

Posted by anandini at 04:28 AM on June 14, 2008.

I've never had this much traffic to MoOMo0 before. The past 30 Google and Yahoo search keywords alone which led to MoOMo0 were 'Murleen Nambiar'. But I wonder who's been Googling from Trinidad? Do we have friends there? Yet it's nice to see how united we, CSMU students, are. Some of the comments were downrite thru. Some I dint understand. But most well said. Nice.

Though Im very curious over who all those '6th year's were? Everyone's '6th year'. Some even '6th year too'..!! Ahahahaha.. but, it doesnt matter la. The message was loud and clear, so all's well. 

So, yeah. Mr U Suppose Struggle person, this is what most of the CSMU students have to say. Im sure by now you'd be to chicken shit to even reveal your true identity, eh. For your very own sake, I'd advise you against it. I believe in karma, you see. And believe me when I say that despite us being quiet and somewhat appear oblivious to whole issue which has been addressed a million times and what nots, we know what's going on. And we know it's still very much evident. The unsaid, y'knw. Which as somewhat why CSMU was derecognized some few years ago. If the majority of the students were to be some what among your friends, dear Mr U Suppose Struggle person, you'd think the issue of derecognition would even arise? No, my friend. Definitely not. But then again, that's a story for a different chapter now, kan? Just dont push your limits y'knw. Im not racist. Really, Im not. I've got wonderful Chinese, Malay, Indian, Portugese, Sarawakian, Sri Lankan,.. you name it, I've got wonderful friends from almost every corner of the globe's denomination. But it's people like you, fanatics like you which may one day be the reason of me being an activist of Human Rights. If we can gather the entire community of fools like you who think alike and look ya'll up in exile in some far away land, Im sure there'll be World Peace in an instant. UN Officials would then be able to go to Hawaii and play with their Frisbees along the beach.

Let's not even start on the Malaysian Gov. Honestly. As it is I've had a hit from some pke.gov.com.my yesterday. Houdini only knows would were they lurking around M0oMo0 for.

Anyways, despite all that's been happening, Im no longer a student. Yes, it's now Dr Anandini M.D. Uber cool! It sure does have a nice ring to it *winks* Congrats all..! Graduating batch of 08, we've succeeded! With a bang indeed!

So, while at яблоко the other day, I found a bottle of Stout. Yes, Guinness Stout! Been craving for some for the past few months, and although 11grvs for a small bottle is a lil on the steep side.. I grabbed it! Nice.

Made homemade Shaurma for dinner today. With chicken, cabbages, tomatoes, cucumbers, mayo, chilli sauce and Lays Crabstick flavoured chips. Yes, chips. Was really yummy!! Tasted a tad bit like those chicken rolls from KFC. Hah.. maybe not.

Im bored. Im now the slave of 620, with pleasure. Honestly. I cook dinner, boil water for Dheepa and Via so they can shower without wiggling like a cicak with cold water, and set the timetable for them to study (more like shout at them to sit their asses down and study!). I wish they'd finish their exams real soon, so we can go out and stuffs.

Oh, new about Murleen's out in the Star and NST. But then again, it's not like the gov's gonna do anything about it, kan. Hhhmmmm.. let's not go there again, Mr U Suppose Struggle person might terasa then.

Ok, Im gonna look for something for me to watch.

Much love.

 

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Happy Daddy's Day.

Posted by anandini at 06:31 AM on June 15, 2008.

Happy Daddy's Day, Daddy...!! You're the bestest Daddy in the whole wide world!!!!!

Coz you gave me the opportunity to realize my dreams, and now Im Dr. Anandini MD. And when I SMSed you earlier to wish you Happy Daddy's Day, you said that this year you've been given the bestest gift ever, that your daughter's a doctor finally. *melts*

Coz despite all the stupid things Ive done, you've always stood by me and had my back and protected me from everything nasty. I remember Sept 10th  '07 very clearly, and I'll never forget how when I called you coz I needed to tell you about it, you dint scold or yell, instead just told me, 'Wait there, Im coming back now'. Really, I'll never forget that day.

Coz when you ask me how much cash I need, and I'd tell you a figure, you'd always double it *wwhheeeee*

Coz you thought me how to cook, just by yelling at me and making me prep for you when you cook dinner after work daily. You thought me never to follow recipes, instead to just hentam and something yummy would eventually cook up,.. well, most of the time at least.

Coz you've always told me nothing's impossible, you've always told me to be positive and that I'm the bestest. You know when to be stern and trusted my decisions even at a very young age. You'd lemme go to the padang to play, even when some parents dint. You lemme go to Subang Parade (at those ancient times!) with my friends when I was only 11, while my other friends had to plead and beg their parents! You've given me the liberty of running upon my own justifications, letting me fall when I should which allowed me to learn great lessons of life.

Coz you mix me wicked lemon vodkas!

Coz I've said it a million times, I'll say it a million more times. The list will never end, the trizillion reasons why you're the bestest. Doesnt help that I'm one darn emo child. 

Coz.. just coz, you're my Daddy. And I love you dearly.

Happy Daddy's Day, Daddy.

I surprised Daddy at his work place 2 years ago, when I returned for summer hols unexpectedly. Thanks to Kom Babez for making the surprise a success!

I miss my Daddy now.

Hhmmmm.

Anyways.. Eve and I went to look at apartments today. Surprisingly a nice one, which was quite reasonably priced, comparative to a hotel room that is. It's super furnished, and it's walking distance from our hostel. So, yeah.. Invitation Letters ready, VISAs done, tickets done, all's set. Eve and I were talking about probable short holiday destinations, around Ukr that is. It's gonna be cool.

We had a lil dinner among our dear neighbours earlier. Just some simple nasi lemak with Dheepa's yummy chicken sambal. Our last dinner in Ukr with Rajish, Rubben and Raynee as they'll be leaving for Malaysia on Monday. Hhmmmm.. was one helluva bitter pill to swallow. Via started crying, I was pretty sad about it. Very sad indeed. It's really very hard to say goodbye. Hhhmmm.. we'll leave that for a different chapter.

The bottle of white wine's almost finished. Rajish bought some to try to sedate Maya, her cocker spaniel which'll be flying back with her. But it dint work, so she gave it to the next available... erm, person. Hahah.. nevermind.

I dont like feeling so sentimental and sad. This is really hard. 

To all Daddies out there, Happy Daddy's Day. 

moo moo?

American Spy!

Posted by anandini at 05:28 AM on June 17, 2008.

Today, the unit left. I hate goodbyes. I really hate goodbyes. Especially those really difficult goodbyes. Like saying farewell to wonderful people you've stayed with thru the past copla years. Hhhmmmm...

Im gonna miss ya'll so much Rajish, Rubben and Raynee. Triple Rs.

Hhhmmmm..

Once again, Im not gonna get all sentimental just yet about the whole finale thing. And yes, that's saved for another chapter.

So, I attempted to make Mee Rebus today. It was somewhat a success :D Me is happy! We ate till we almost threw up. Yes, I should have stopped at the one pot of noodles, but Via came in and said they weren't enough. So, we ended up stuffing ourselves silly.

Speaking of which, a certain someone (I cant say who!) just told us that she's a SPY. An American spy! Ahhahahaha..talking about this dinner, with our almost gonna muntah out dinner, was so darn hilarious! Yes, this is what we term as Pre-Exam Delirium. Her exam's tmrw..!

Ok, I'm gonna shower now.

Much love. 

 

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Why? Do you know?

Posted by anandini at 08:08 AM on June 19, 2008.

It's almost 3am. I cant sleep, coz Dheepa's frickin drowning in pre-exam stress. She's being one helluva pissy cicak...!! I cannot tahan..!!! 10 more hours, 10 more hours till Dheepa's all done, and I'll jump around coz I'll be free from my finished-exam-but-cant-party imprisonment!!!! Wooot!

1 teaspoon of Nescafe, with about 2inches of hot water and milk filled to the brim is nice! Contraindicated, but nice. Via said that if she sees me breathless later she'll box me! Hah..

Today I stir fried some noodles, and they ended up tasting like wan tan mee. I've always found that 'wan tan mee' name hilarious..!! Like as though it was 'one ton mee'...!! Ahahahha.. damn heavy rite! Ahahahaha.. so funny!

Why did the chicken cross the road?

Anyways, I was as bored as a pot of boiled potatoes (I knw, I suck at metaphorical texting), so much so I logged onto mIRC and chatted with someone called Kabbyz of something. He was a Kenyan, living in Malaysia who's studying in MMU. We spoke about Hendrix, and how he'd be turning in his grave seeing how Malaysian vodka tastes like floor cleaner. Though it aint all that rite, seeing how Jimi actually died of some drug OD. Actually he died coz he inhaled his own vomit, after being OD-ed on something which still remains a mystery, as he was on so many substance it was hard to say which. Oh and so, Kabbyz and I were talking about how things were in Malaysia, and I got a foreigner's view on everything Malaysian. Pretty sad to say, he thinks so low of the political system and the injustice of democracy and equality. Hhmmm.. we also spoke about how he loves Indian girls. Hah...

I dont know why the chicken crossed the road.

I've also read two back dated issues of Cleo, listened to some 512MBs of sappy boy band songs from Dheepa's playlist. I almost killed myself in all psychedelic ways.. and blame Backstreet Boys for it (Backside Boys!). No offense to all BSB faithful fans (despite the fact that BSB made just a handful of albums and then just went dry and lived upon stale royalties!),..!

Oh, I've still no clue what I'll be wearing for convo! Amazing aint it..

Haih.

I wish they had Jusco here.

Via says Hellow! She's studying for her next paper, due Saturday. General Surgery... which she hates. Her Therapy paper dint go so well, despite her excellent grasp of the subject. She dint quite deserve the mark given. It's just the system here, sometimes you fall prey to it. But I kept telling her, people like us will end up saving lives.. where as those you-know-who-s will end up standing behind the curtains too chicken shit to even draw blood, what more to prescribe a handful of PCMs and E-Mycin for an URTI. So yeah.. screw them. Study for our future, not for exams. As future patients arent gonna walk into your lil 8x10 cubicle, asking you what'd you score for your 5th year finals! Kan? I for one know you'd make an excellent doctor, Via dearest!

I ramble to much when Im bored!

Oooh.. spoke to Unc Shan the other day, till my line got disconnected! Sorry for that, Unc Shan. Was wonderful chatting with you, and darling Joshua! How'd he do in his Public Speaking competition? Im sure he did well!! Cant wait to see ya'll this summer...!! Come pick me for breakfast, yah!

Bummer.. I saw lovely suits among the pages of Cleo. Thing being, they're all from Padini.Co... which wonderful Ukraine's lacking of.

Eve.. let's go commando!!! Ahahahahha... Im kidding. Really, I am. Ahahahahah... really, Eve! Im joking!

In 10 hours time, Im gonna kick Dheepa so hard she'll twist her hips well like Elvis did! She cant use the I've-got-exam excuse anymore...!

Ok, my fingers are tired from typing.

Dheepa's still tossing and turning. She still cant sleep. Via suggested for he to count sheeps backwards. But it dint work, for Dheepa (being the dumb hippo she is) started to imagine those sheeps tripping over the fence from jumping backwards! Yes, only Dheepa! Only Dheepa...

Via stole my Siesta bar which Eve got me.

Lovely day, all. Much love.

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Goodbyes are yucky

Posted by anandini at 08:50 AM on June 23, 2008.

I need more cargo space. Wait, rephrased: I need more CHEAPER cargo space!

Dammit.. why do I have so much clothes! Despite me clearing everything, and donating almost 16kgs of clothes (YES! 16kgs!) to the nearby orphanage, Im still freakin out over how I'm gonna bring a whole lotta other stuffs back! 

4kgs went to Via, she insisted on having some of my sweaters and stuffs. Yes, she's more of a sentimental nut than I am. But then again.. hhmmmm, never mind.

Leaving is so frickin hard. Goodbyes aside, there's the packing, the cleaning up, the second hand sales... there's just so much! 

Hhhmmmm.

I'm gonna be starving myself for the next 4 days, til the 27th. I cant be this fat, rolling towards the Dean and Vice Rector to receive my degree! Im unbelievably fat now! Honestly!! I just cant help it, I just love food. And I cant even exercise or get my cardio pumping, for my TT will just go bonkers! Hhmmmm.. so yeah, I know it's wrong. I know it's crappy, but I'm gonna be starving myself a lil. At least Im not being bulimic, rite? 

Speaking of food, today we stuffed ourselves silly (again!) with yummy chicken rice. We had leftover marinated chicken an porky from yesterday's Teppanyaki dinner. Haih.. food's just too darn good to be abstained from!

Via says hello. She's trying to sleep, her backache's gotten really bad. Hhhmmm.. poor girl, hope she feels better tmrw!

I miss the 3 Rs. Rajish, Rubben and Raynee. Miss having them kacau me around.

I dun like goodbyes!

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Lalala,...

Posted by anandini at 05:48 AM on June 26, 2008.

Convo's on Friday. And I'm all set..!! Finally bought a lil satin-ish shirt (never thought I'd ever!), and a lil brown skirt, to go with my brown suede boots! All's set.

Eve's Mum, Grandma and Uncle are down for the convo. Their baggages were left stranded in Tashkent. I thought I've seen the worst of efficiency in Ukraine, but looks like it was the KLIA dumb idiots who screwed up this time. So, we've been shopping for clothes and stuffs, and now they're all set for convo too!

Dear Via's just down to one more paper before she too can party like the rest of us!!! Go Via, Go!!!

We're gonna hunt the Limo guy down tmrw. Hopefully we succeed..!

Im too tired today. Im waiting for the water to boil so I can shower, and just go to sleep....

Much love all..! Keep well.

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Graduate from Med School: CHECK!

Posted by anandini at 09:31 PM on June 29, 2008.

Finally... Convo was on Friday, 27th July. A day to remember.

More pictures soon, either here or over at my Facebook account!

Much love!

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