I wanna be locked up in a room all by myself...

Posted by anandini at 12:33 AM on May 2, 2008.

10 days...!!! Been 10 days since I last updated...!! I think that's been my longest ever sabbatical, apart from summer hols. I wonder why, actually. Nothing interesting happening... no? Not much free time anymore... no? Sorta lost the interest ramble and to simply write... no? Too many restrictions... no? I dont know.. maybe all of the above mentioned.

So.. anyways.

YASVA camp over the weekend was refreshing, and very very very ultimately tiring. It's more than just a smile and a nod to the many faces we see around campus over these 6 years, we've somehow become better friends over the camp. Certain questions I used to personally ask myself, I've now somewhat got a closer reflection upon the answers. Oh, and we'll definitely make perfect tour guides to Sevastopol, thanks to Sunday's 8 hour long Amazing Race! Overall, kudos to the organizers for a tediously planned, amazingly organized camp!

Then on Monday, we had a lil SGI meet with a friend from Kiev, Mr Hiroki.. who somehow survived my beef paratel which was a tad too spicy! We brought along friends who wanted to know more about Buddhism, and the whole event was nice. Mr Hiroki kept snapping my picture.. to which LiYun even asked if I felt as though I was in a zoo..!!

Last nite, we tried teaching Suriya how to play Taboo..., which would have been a better idea without the vodka! Funny as hell...! I sincerely apo...! Ahahahaha...

Called home earlier.. spoke to everyone slightly more than an hour. Was nice to finally speak to everyone, who sounded happier and merrier.

Oh.. and yay to Chelsia!!! UEFA Champions? Maybe..

Oh.. and how the hell did Cindy win Malaysian Dreamgirl!?!? Yes, so she speaks well.. but it's not a language contest!! She cant even catwalk pleasantly.. she poses like a boar, and takes horrendous pictures!! I guess money does really talk.. as her family apparently spent some 15k in SMS votes! Haih... poor Hanis. But I guess she'll go far now, considering how most Agencies has seen her true potential..!  

Im full of questions today. Self enlightenment kinda questions.. So, Im gonna stop rambling now. Just somehow unsettled over how Im so limited upon my words and actions.. which, perhaps is for the better. Or not? Hhmmm...

Hope all goes well tmrw...! 

moo moo?

Sux really bad..

Posted by anandini at 04:27 AM on May 6, 2008.

Today's not been a good day.

For one.. the answer's no. Mum's kinda upset about it,.. actually she's very upset. I am too. But that's somehow how the system works. Nothing I say or do may be able to change it, or to simply justify it. Just gotta accept it, and ignore it's significance. Just hope nobody brings it up, and question it.. for I wont be able to answer to most 'why's..

Then.. the whole picture thing. Hhhmmm.. truly, it really feels as if all my actions and speech now has to be passed thru some certain accreditation block before it may be deemed proper. I cannot please everyone. If only the act of understanding doesnt appear to be so complex. I sometimes feel so rigid upon whatever I say or do, as somehow in some every way, it seems to upset at least one person around. At the very least.. hhmmmmm.

Semester ends on Thursday. Hence, these are my last few days as an undergrad in CSMU. Vividly scary.. though anticipating the many challenges ahead. Yes, challenges.

It's hard not to be bitter about it.. but, hey.. I tried. Now, I've gotta try to accept it as well. Wouldnt be so hard.. me thinks.

Oh yeah.. Happy Birthday Dinesh! Yeah, the pet's now 19 years old...! I pray you gain all accommodation to grandly pimp your ride, to drive me around when I'll be home in summer...! Hah..!

Hhhmmmm...

I need a hug. I want my Mum. I just need to be silent and not explain.

moo moo?

The last one standing...

Posted by anandini at 04:00 AM on May 8, 2008.

After so many tomorrows and tak-jadi-ness... the much awaited BBQ finally took place tonite!!! Kecoh-ness as always..!! This time around, we dint have to go far, we did it behind the Hostel in perfect wonderful convenience of everything around. There's still enough food for dinner tomorrow..!!

So.. after a whole 6 years, after everything thru thick and thin with the lovely us, tomorrow will be our final day as undergrads. Pretty scary.. as it means soon we'll be thrown into the real mean reality called INTERNSHIP! Pretty disheartening, as we'll be soon far our of this whole comfort zone we've got going on now. Pretty anxious.. but oh so exciting as well. Some sorta extreme feeling of fulfillment... somehow.

On a different note.. if all goes as planned, Im due back on the 20th of July. Touching down around 1am ish...

601... from 127, to 210, 310, 410 and 501, it was indeed a wonderful journey. The six of us, Im glad I've got ya'll as family. I hope we'll remain this wonderful bridge of friendship till each of us grow all in wonderful prime in out 70's, with enough children and grandkids to form 2 footie teams! Yay to that...! 

Ok.. a proper tribute to 601 soon.

I need to study for my Surgery exam.. unexpectedly due tmrw!

Much love ya'll...! 

2 moo moo-ed

Me likey...

Posted by anandini at 05:20 AM on May 12, 2008.

It somehow feels super weird, it's hard to describe.. but I feel lost. Without classes, it feels too free.. as though I've lost a flow of regular regime. These past few days was as though we were on a short holiday, just without the 'back to class soon' feeling.

Yeah.. somehow 6 years of torturous academics somehow just zoomed past. As to what we were reminiscing upon, it seemed as if it was just yesterday we started Med School.

So.. Step 2 Krok (Ukrainian's Entrance Exam) which consists of some dahsyat 200 can die MCQs are scheduled for the 20th of May, which is a mere 10 day away. This is what the USMLE is to those studying in the US. So, yeah.. it's frickin important. And it's definitely do or die, ironically. Despite of how you've performed in the whole entire 6 years of MedSchool, if you screw up Krok2.. you're ultimately screwed big time!

After that, finals are on May 29th and June 11the. And rite after that.. if Im still confused upon treating a common cold, I might as well just shoot myself and go straight to hell.

Oh well.

Friday evening, SOC held a lil farewell event for us, the 6th years who'll be leaving soon. Damn emo, the huge servings of sentimental-ness was of course eventually transformed into tears.. inevitably. But seriously la, as the day nears.. it's the pill gets even bitter to swallow. To quote a bumper sticker Dheepa posted on my Facebook... 'We left families to live with strangers, and now we'll be leaving our Family to go home'.

Yes. Sentimentalness will be the highlight of my entries for the next 3 months or so.

And Via's next to me, about to flood the entire Ukraine with her tears. They should build a pipeline from her lacrimal ducts to supply the entire Sahara desert, then Sahara'll be rich with an entire pineapple plantation enough to feed Dheepa's love of pineapple tarts for an entire lifetime, and perhaps the next one too.

Ish.

On Saturday, we had a lovely day out. We had yummy porky shashliks and plov for lunch. Then we walked around renak looking for appropriate suits to be worn on June 27th, which Im now thinking if it'll all be worth of all the fuss, since the huge ass robe will be thrown over us anyways. Will never understand the science of that logic. So anyways.. we were walking around renak, then it started to rain.. so we walked around Gudang sumore. Stupid LiYun fooled me about something stupid over at the Nescafe machine... *slaps forehead* Then we walked to this nearby Italian Restaurant.. where the food was very yummy, and reasonably priced for such huge portions, which made me happy! Along the way, we stopped by a toy shop where everyone copy cat-ed me and all bought bubbles to blow around with. Then we went to Cilpo and walked around upstairs, too bad the toy shop was closed. Before heading back, we went downstairs and bought yummy canned lychees.. which I ate all in one entire serving earlier!

That same nite, at around 11pm-ish.. we caught a cab to LiYun's place where we had a lil slumber party! Pear vodka + Orange Fanta + fruit jell-o is yummy!

Oh yeah... Today's Mummy's Day. Called home, Mum answered and wished me Happy Mummy's Day before I could even say anything! Luke was there as well.. so kecoh gila la! Stupid fler's threatening to raid my room and dig out all my dirt if I come back without the bottle of Absinth he's blackmailed me into buying! Stupid fler.. Mum's trying to kahwinkan him.. muahahahah!!

Via and Dheepa are stupid people! They're kutuking my Russian Language! Stupid people!

Im gonna sleep now. Tmrw's my class' photo shoot for the yearbook thingy. Im still clueless over what Im gonna wear. Crap. 

Have a lovely week ya'll... much love. Stay safe. 

moo moo?

Hellow Mr MoOMoO.. So nice to see you :D

Posted by anandini at 03:47 AM on May 15, 2008.

Coke and cognac at 4pm-ish is bliss. A sin as well, since Im supposed to be studying for my Krok-2 due coming Tuesday. Yes, the most feared note among all graduates, and yet it has ironically not hit me yet. The panic factor I mean. Hhhmmm...

Oh.. its Rajiev the RAT's birthday!!! Older he's become.. wiser perhaps ~..!! Ahhahhh.. Happy Wonderful Birthday, been 6 years Ive known you and all I can say is that is has definitely been a marvelous journey! Everything nice and lovely on this day for you, and never ending happiness to come!

This year around we sent Rajiev on some sorta Amazing Race-ish route all around hostel, to friends' room where a certain dare thingy was to be done and only then was he given his next clue! Heheheheh... no la, we're not mean, we're just loving!

Still on Rajiev's birthday.. it's not 7.15pm, and Im wondering how we're gonna bring down all the food and the balloons to his room! You see.. we've blown the balloons!! Haih..

UPDATE: From this point onwards....

Rajiev took forever to finish his rounds!!! He sang some few songs, did a few silly things, had some few shots.. overall I guess he celebrated his birthday among most of his close friends here in Ukraine!! Thanks to everyone who agreed to play a roll in it.. you guys were truly a wonderful sport! And Rajiev... hope you've enjoyed your day...!!!

I just swept the room.. pretty breathless now. *sigh* I thought my TT was getting better. Hhhmmmm...

My laptop charger's kaput-ed. Long story. Im now half lifeless...

Now.. Im contemplating between hitting the sack into lovely lalaland... or to actually study a lil. At the rate Im going.. it's indeed pretty scary. Ish.. Anan doesnt like exams!

Have a lovely day, ya'll...

Much love. 

moo moo?

Crappy days..

Posted by anandini at 04:35 AM on May 16, 2008.

Once again.. the time of the year again, where I repeatedly chant 'I should have started EARLIER'..!!!

Im sick of all these MCQs...!!!!!!!!! There's just so much of them....

Ironic come to think of it.. how just a mere 200 MCQ paper would somehow rate my performance all along Med School. Hhhmmm...

Dammit.

Also shitty that Im falling sick. My throat's all sand paper-ish and my eyes are burning. Boiled a whole pot of barley, and popped a copla anti-histamines to shoo the flu away.

Triple whammy.. as TT's acting up real bad! Like seriously bad! Hhhmmmm...

Just a copla more days.

Dear best friend from kindie day... Kathleen Anne, HAPPY BIRTHDAY Babez!!! Have a lovely day.. dont know if you actually read my ramblings.. but here goes anyways.

6th years of wonderful CSMUians.. stay sane. Oh.. and there's a NO ENTRY sign on 620's door.. seriously! HUGE HUGE SIGN.. so, take note!

To everyone else, keep well. Much love...

moo moo?

BANG!

Posted by anandini at 04:24 AM on May 19, 2008.

Im this teeny weeny teeny weeny close to shooting myself...!!!!!!

I think for the next few hours, til 10am 20th May.. Im gonna just shut it, not say anything, not do anything, and just sit in this lil fort I have around me and just be by myself. And my lil orange book filled with some 200 odd MCQs.

Yes. Im almost going crazy.

Bad enough that the whole of Saturday I was bed ridden, with a frickin temp high enough to fry my brains! 38.5 degs, which refused to go down despite constant sponging by Via and Dheepa. Hhhmmmm... 

TT's going crazy. Im breathless almost the entire day. I hate this disease! I hate this stupid TT. I hate the fact that Im sick. I dont need to be sick now! I cant be sick NOW!

Words. Hhhmmmm... it always never seems to be the way it appears to be. A whole lotta shit just somehow frickin happens!!!!!!

Harry just brought us food. Thank you, Harry. You can be an angel at times. Just at times.

Called home today, and heard Sweetie singing and laughing and wat nots. So darn cute...!! Everyone was there.. Capt Luke blanja-ed everyone! I miss all bodies there... 

That aside. Im still gonna shoot myself.

BANG...! 

moo moo?

Crosses fingers.

Posted by anandini at 07:38 AM on May 27, 2008.

I wastes almost an hour just to get some fries. Stupid cab took forever..! Yes, I know ridiculous it sounds, McDs at 11pm. But we were really really really hungry! Plus studying Hygiene's crappy and a huge serving of fries and McChicken was one helluva intensive indeed.

Yes, I now see myself rolling down to receive my scroll. Bang went my diet plan. And my very personal financial plan as well. Ish..

I keep chanting to myself.. I can do it, I can do it. Now it has been transformed to,.. I MUST do it, I MUST do it! Haih.. finals, slowly, silently, inevidently killing me!

Yeah.. albeit a whole lotta days late, Krok-2 results promises a massive influx of doctors invading local GH this summer. Yes, everyone passed.. wonderful results. But I wish I had done better. Oh well.. That's just how it always happens.

It rained super duper massive today.. forget cats and dogs, it was literally dinasours and hippos! Poor Via had to walk back from Titowa as there werent any mashroots (buses) as the roads were all flooded. Yeah, so it rains pretty dahsyatly in Ukraine.. and the power gets cut off, and the phone lines go bonkers. Only in Ukraine.

Dad SMSed yesterday.. said the countdown's started, 50-odd days to go. Just go to show how preoccupied Ive been, I hardly noticed. Hhhmmm..

Yes, Im drowning in stress. But then again.. what's new?

Stay sane 6-years.. more like, stay sane, Anan dear.

Via's been a gem. Every 2mins she asks Dheepa and I if we'd like Milo, or tea, or anything la. Darling you are.. I'd like you to go for my exams for me, can? :p

Im so tired. Tmrw's gonna be crappy with Social Med. God Bless the choc chip cookies.

Much love. Pray. Real hard. 

moo moo?

Im bored.

Posted by anandini at 05:26 AM on June 1, 2008.

Im currently in love with those lovely garlic bread Via makes. Had a whole lotta them for dinner earlier, with some soup and nuggets. Yummy yummy...!

We've just set Dheepa's heart racing over some Google results we've discovered! But.. I cant really tell. Dheepa's stonger, and she packs on helluva whack!

Oh yeah.. one down, one more to go. The hardest among them all. I'm gonna start studying only tmrw, after a much anticipated two days siesta. Hope all goes well. And really pray my TT wont go bonkers as it did for the earlier paper

There's this fellow who's been missing. His picture's up everywhere, his friends and the entire community of CSMU in general are very worried. Hhhmmm.. where ever he is, I just pray he's safe. Im pretty sure he is, my intuition tells me so, I am after all psychic. So yeah...

Dad's a darling. Graduating and all, there's just so much to pay for, and I've exhausted my given allowance. Asked him for some extra cash,  and he doubled it! Wheeee....! Me loves me Daddy...! He's the entire world wide bestest!

Oh.. the other nite we had some yummy dinner. But then again, if we were to continue eating like that, I'd expand horizontally to an unrecognizable level. We had fried chicken, baked chicken wings, tomato and cucumber salad, Via's yummy garlic bread and spaghetti with some massive vege sauce!!! Yummy..

Speaking of being fat.. after so long, we finally got back to our daily routine of sit-ups and aerobics today. But due to my stupid frickin TT, I sorta almost died.. hhmmmmm. I dont like being sick.

Im so bored now. I've no movies to watch, no episodes of any series. Im sick of surfing around Friendster and Facebook. I've blogged. Ive checked my mail. I cant talk and yak coz Dheepa's studying. I dont feel like infusing myself with alco. Im just bored. 

How much orange juice is there in a bottle of Orange Fanta. It's so orange, I doubt they'd use oranges to orange it. It's just too orange. Even if it's artificial colouring, it's way to orange. Hhmmm...

I'm craving for a bowl of yummy curry mee. Not just any curry mee, but it should be from this one shop somewhere near my house. He's known as the 'Fat Man Kuey Teow and Curry Mee'.. but his wife is the who actually makes the curry mee, unfortunately, she doesn't make it anymore coz she's gotten really ill or something. Oh.. but the curry mee is simply yummy!! With lotsa cockles and that sambal-ish thingy and the sinful lemak-ish gravy... hhhmmmm, I want. I want..

Speaking of which.. Dad SMSed on Thursday (Yes, he hardly SMSs, he usually mails me) to congratulate me and he said 'we'll give you a hug in 50 days'.. Been so tied up, hardly realise it's just down to some 50days. Scary...

Tomorrow.. we're planning to go to the Rinak. Main aim: Porky shashliks. Just hope it doesn't rain, and that we manage to drag ourselves outa bed. We've also gotta get a bag of salt, and some green tea for Dheepa. And some vegetables.

Im rambling too much.

Oh yeah.. the other day the ex-BF came online on YM. Not the immediate Ex.. but more of the Ex-Ex BF. Yes, the married one. And no, he dint say hi.. and Im glad he did not. I wouldn't know what to say. Apart from the current Ex, he's the other one which dint end so well. But then again, comparatively to the fool (the current ex), the Ex-Ex is way much more civilised and sane. Ok.. y'knw what, let's not even go there.

I still want that bowl of curry mee. With extra cockles and that sambal thingy.

Im tired of typing now.

Via says Hi.

Have a lovely Sabbath ya'll... much love. 

moo moo?