Posted by anandini at 02:23 AM on September 24, 2007.
Soon.
Im alive. To those who thought I was kidnapped by aliens. Im alive. Not too well, but alive.
Soon, I'll let it out. Not now,.. just not now.
You people, I love ya'll.. I dunno what would have happened to me, without ya'll around. Yes, I mean it.
Ok. Too much info.
In time to come. Soon, I promise.
Posted by anandini at 12:47 AM on September 26, 2007.
So, Harry just came in and deleted pictures off my Friendster profile. He randomly chose, and deleted two of my most favourite pictures. Hurts like crazy...
Yes, I'll explain why soon.
Still not ready, yet.
Spoke to Mufu last nite over MSN. Miss her so much. She's almost 5 months pregnant now.. and she did a wonderful job at making me feel happy, at least for a lil bit.
Im thinking of shutting down M0oMo0.. as there's just too much which reminds me of evrything here. But I love M0oMo0 too much. I dunno.. Im still considering other options. Even if M0oMo0 were too be maintained, it wouldnt be as what it used to be.. all chirpy and bouncy. It's gonna be pretty psycho-bipolar-ish from now, depression dominating.
And yes, Im still very much glad of you being around. You, and you, and you, and you, and you. You. Honestly, I'd be such a goner without you guys.
Ok. Soon, I'll explain. If I ever do. Soon.
Posted by anandini at 03:56 AM on September 27, 2007.
I think I'll be ok.
I thought I wont be handle it. But I think I'll be ok. It's the 27th. I'll be ok. I think.
No more Student Council. Attended the very last board meeting earlier. AGM's scheduled for the 29th. Wonder what's gonna happen.
But, somethin else is cooking. Something beneficial. It oughta be good.
Rite. Im too tired. Gonna tidur now.
Posted by anandini at 08:15 PM on September 27, 2007.
Anan's in helluva denial. Seriously.
Denial. Denial. Denial.
But being in denial works, kinda.
There... denial again.
Dammit.
No.. but I AM OK!
Denial?
I frickin do not know.
Dammit!!!!
I hate u for doing this to me...!!! Seriously.. only thing is, Im not an animal like you are, I know you well enough to still care for u. Unlike you.
Ok. I'll explain soon. But most of ya'll must have known by now.
Im in denial. But, ironically it helps. Some sorta optimistic vibe thing, with a tinge of the whole shit happening around it as well. Yeah, it doesnt make much sense to the regular person out there.
You've gotta be a nut like me, to actually understand my lingo.
Yeah, whatever.
Posted by anandini at 02:34 AM on September 29, 2007.
I think Im slowly loosing it.
One minute all's fine and I feel strong enough to just put it behind... then the next, it feels so effed up, hurts so much, I wonder wat's left of evrything, anything at all.
And for the first time ever, Im conscious over wat I ramble about in here. For I know there are one too few people reading my thoughts in here, and I wonder if it's all appropriate. I never did care before.
Dun pity me, dun feel sorry for me. And please do not judge me.
Yeah.
I need my life back.
I hate you for doing this to me, honestly.
The handful of people who make me feel better when I hit rock bottom,.. I truly love you. Thank you.
And I wish I'd stop asking why. I need to stop asking why.
Will I ever get over this?