Just another junction..

Posted by anandini at 12:23 AM on February 2, 2007.

<p>11degs Celcius..yup! Yesterday it was -5 degs, and today it's +6 degs. Only in wonderful Ukraine does the temp jump 11 degs, at one go!</p> <p>Snow was fluffy yesterday...snow balls almost always ended up as one big flutter of snow! And yet, today it was all sludge-ish..and yucky! Ish..Im sick of dragging my feet thru those heavy bulky winter boots!</p> <p>Ooh.. I got trashed in the snow yesterday. Yes, the annual Roll-Anan-In-The-Snow thingy...a weird way my lovely friends celebrate my bday *rolls eyes* Was praying hard dat winter would have somehow warmed by, but it snowed, not only on the first day of class,.. but also in time for my Birthday. Which isnt a good thing...ish. Oh well...</p> <p>Yeah. I wish I know wat to do.&nbsp;I wish I understand what's going on. I wanna be able to think of a solution. Yet..hhmmm. It's sad seeing how things are, and to reminisce how things once were. I guess, it's just it.. it'l be such. Just gotta go on..somehow. A four cornered cardboard box. Beats the crappyness all the time..</p> <p>Mum SMSed me today.. she said she had a dream about my brother, who was all scrawny and sun burnt in her dream! Aahaaha..she sure does misses him! So cute..!</p> <p>Yeah..so it's the 1st of February. Im having mixed emotions.. more towards the gloomy side. Hhhmm..</p> <p>Perhaps it's just a mind game.. maybe it's always depressing coz that's how I want it to be?! Even if it is, is there anything wrong in that? Maybe being depressed is my way of getting on with things, accepting it and somehow, just being it. Hhhmm...</p> <p>Soon. I'll be blue no more..</p> <p>Rite?</p> <p>It's not just that mere countdown now.. the countdown's far more down now. </p> <p>Baby.. thank you, you've kept me smiling, you've made me strong. When things are so crappy, you held my hand and showered me with your lovely dose of joy...me luvs you so mush *hugs tite tite*</p>

moo moo?

Old Lady...by the window.

Posted by anandini at 02:41 PM on February 2, 2007.

Gosh.

Im gettin old. Like so very de old!!!

Where did all those years go to!? Ish...bodohnye..

Woke up to happy start. Yes, Belalang Boy...all the love in the world!

But Ive not berus gigi yet... Im supposed to start getting ready for Peds Surgery lect, when my alarm rings...in abt 2mins fr now!

I wanna eat the banana Dheepa's left on the fridge..! Oh..speakin of Dheepa, her dead body clothes' so stinky! Yucks..reminded me of my ForensicMed days! Ooh...yucks.

Good Lord... Im old. It's like mid-mid life crisis! Well, almost.

Dad said if he hears that Ive been crying..he's gonna personally fly over and spank me. Half of me wishin he would...all of em! But not spank me la..

See...sedih edi

Aiyoh..so damn old wei!!

Haih.

Ok, alarm's rang.

Off....to save the world.

But first, must berus gigi!!

Me loves you, Bums...! 

moo moo?

Aging...gracefully?

Posted by anandini at 05:02 PM on February 5, 2007.

Yeah.. the most hated day of the year. Or so, Ive chose to believe..! 0302..

I was readin my past entries, those of 0302, and it was somewhat similar..without much difference. Yes, depressing as ever. Have to start shaking this off,.. or Im gonna hate this day for as long as I live.

But, what can I say? It's just such.. it's not just about missing home anymore. It's not just about being home sick anymore. It's simply much more than that..

So anyway.. after how they made me throw up last year, this year I got a real Pizza Cake!! A yummy one, for that matter.. and it was topped with black pepper chicken, lotsa cheese and pineapples.. with a significant amount of candles on it! Wah..damn gempakfied. And they spent the whole day preparing stuffs for the tom yam steamboat *hugs* Which was so yummy, I even ate some the next day (somethin I usually dont do!!)..!! After makaning and all,..we went in to open pressies!! Harry gave me a.....er, somethin unique la. It vibrates, it's pink and it has veins. Ahahahaha.. Amman, my classmate gave me this super cute MooM0o mug coz Harry told her I like cows! Ahahahahah...then we went out back into the unit, and there was this huge ass cake!! Like super huge, ok!! It had the yummyiest purple frosting, M&Ms and choc sticks arnd it..served with ice cream!! How's dat...amazing!!!!

I somehow knew somethin was up.. Dheepa kept goin MIA, evryone else somehow MIA-ed too! And I heard evrything while they were setting things up, outside! Ahahahah..

Thanks a lot guys,.. Dheepa, Eve, Rajiev, Harry, Shafi, LiYun (who couldnt make it, but called!!), Raynee, Sugan, Rajish, Rooben!!! Ya'll are the bestest...! This has truly been one of my most memorable 0302s here in Ukraine! 

Yeah.. 0302 came and left. Feeling the inch as Im nearing old age. Seriously, some sorta mid-midlife crisis's happenin here.

Dad woke up at 5.45am on the 3rd to gimme a call, which makes up to 12am my time. He's the bestest.. Mum said, he hardly slept, as he juz kept lookin at the clock to call me!! Ahahahah...*hugs* they're the bestest! 

The Boyfriend said, he's glad of my birth date.. coz it allows him to love like a mad man! *hugs* Albeit, a bit peculiar..it's so amusingly sweet! 

Grandma first wished me Happy Birthday..and before I could say anyting else..she asked me how's my T&T!?! Ahahahh...So cute!

Speakin of T&T... I missed 2 days of my medication. And it's finally taking toll today. I feel like a fish taken out of the water...my heart's on 6th gear, and Im trembling like Muhammad Ali. Hardly slept thru the nite..and the dull chest pain is so annoying. Wonder if it's the lack of Carbemazole... or perhaps, somethin else. 

Yeah.. so I screwd ENT & Therapy Lect. Thought of just screwin the first Lect.. but somehow screwd the second one as well. But Ive to drag my ass somehow to Titowa for Peds Surgery. Somehow...

Oh well.

So, that was it.

Just another day... or perhaps not.

Im old enough to be God. Or at least I wish I was God.. coz I'd really wanna turn back time, and undo certain things. Just certain things..things which sorta ruined almost evrything. Hhhmmmm...oh well.

One day, you'll understand. And one day, you'll know...

So, evrything goes on.

Im gonna start getting ready for class...

I love ya'll loads..thanks again!

I love Mum&Dad, they're the greatest!

And I love u, Baby..be mine always! 

2 moo moo-ed

Aquarians...!!

Posted by anandini at 05:12 PM on February 5, 2007.

Oh..

It was Kanchi's Birthday yesterday (4th).. Happy Birthday woman! Be good..and take care! And dun worry, I wont electrocute myself *winks* I'd prefer the real deal instead..! Ahahahaahah...

And today (5th) is XinYi's birthday..!! Happy Birthday ding dong!! Ahahaaah,..u're older than I am, a quarter century!! ahahahahah...Happy feeling old, we'll love u still!!

And I realised, Ive got 4 others born on 0302 on my Friendster list, alone! Amazing..!

Aquarians rocks...yeah!!

Ok..moment over. 

moo moo?

The Unexplained.

Posted by anandini at 03:10 AM on February 8, 2007.

One out of four....down!

Makes today feel like a Friday..!!

So, Peds' Surgery all finito.. up next is Trauma, which is literally gonna be Orthopedics.

Shafi's a ghost now. We're not gonna layan her, and we're gonna pretend she's around. Coz she's a meanie!!

Im too lazy to say much, although Ive much to say.

There's this unsettled feeling twiggling inside of me somewhere..and that makes me pretty restless

Ive been praying a whole lot. And wishing really hard. If or not it works, time'll decide. But if it does, I guess it's gonna define my faith in a much deeper perspective...or so.

The Mo0M0o mug/cup/bowl (I dunno wat to call it) which Amman gave me for my birthday..filled  with icecream!! Cute, eh..~ (on top a whole stack of Peds Surgery notes!!)

Flight ticket back home has been confirmed. But Im lookin into other options.. about 140 days or so, til I touch down KLIA.

Im happy. Im relieved. Im anxious. Im worried. Im confused. Im too full. Im helpless. Im guilty. Im loved. Im thought of. Im stupid.

Yeah.

I love you, Baby... Im always here for u *hugs* 

moo moo?

Lollies..

Posted by anandini at 02:20 AM on February 10, 2007.

It's just wonderful. Really, Im speechless.. all I can say is, it's finally wonderful!!! *claps*

Y'knw.. there's this whole sense of accomplishment from washing clothes. Yes.. really! I just washed some 5 tee shirts.. and I feel invisible! *grins*

My PC crashed.. well, sorta. I do not know for sure. Evrything else seems to running, except the monitor. Damn sedih.. I hope my documents could be save, at least.

So, Tkach.. who we've all been very stressed over, turned out to be nice today. Perhaps, more like.. 501 gave him a superb good impression. Nice.. I hope it stays smooth. But it's definitely gonna involve a whole lotta hard work!!

Had a lil chat with Irina Borisovna today. Been quite some time actually.. was pleasant cathin up. She's still the same hyper bubbly person!

Im too happy!! Im just happy!! Happy! Happy! Happy!! *dances arnd*

But Id be happier, if my laptop came back to life though..

Oh..yeah, stupid kiasu people of the century. Good heavens... why'd you wanna be so kiasu?! You aint gonna go far being such! It's gonna hit you back one day..! Dont say I did not warn you..!! If you've got half a portion of yummy chicken pie...fine la, even I wouldnt share!! But when comes to knowledge, the more you share..the more it'll be returned upon you! Havent you learnt, already? Haih... such a disgress to mankind la, ya'll!! Go screw urselves la..

Ok.End of pissy moment.

Im still happy!! Happy!! Happy!!

Anna Nicole Smith died. And he's mourning her lost. Old, wrinkly, OLD, wrinkly!! And he's mourning her lost. Apa la Baby!? *grins*

Oooh..been seein some nasty weird couples around. New ones. I wonder what's happenin to the world. People dying, evyrone's at war, Somalia's still poor..and now we have these weird couples! Haih...dunno la. Some say love is blind. I wonder if it's blind, or just plain stupid to them. And no.. I aint saying who! So, do not ask. Not even personally!

Broke my back carrying Netter around the whole day, today! Why must medical books be freakin heavy and thick!?! It's hard enough studying the subject, cant they at least make our books to be more convenient? They're all out just to torture us la...it's so aint fair!

Ok. End of grumbling moment.

Oohh.. the clothes I just washed smells lovely. I love my peach softener!

Oh, and me thinks me have lost more weight. Half of me, is happy..and half of me is worried sick!

*gasp* I just found out Im listed on this. How? *wonders*

Ok. Called Vieshal.. My laptop superhero! Hopefully my documents can be saved *prays*

Oh yeah.. Ive been praying a lot lately. But now things are better, I sorta forgot to pray. Im gonna pray still. Things still need to get better.

Baby Boo..I love you so damn much. Yes, that day will come! When the walls are maroon, and the TV pink :D

moo moo?

What happens when you eat too much?!

Posted by anandini at 07:38 PM on February 11, 2007.

It's so sunny outside. Some say it might snow again,...But then again, it's wonder weather over here. Not to be judged at all. It can snow, hail, blow, rain..all over a monosecond interval. I swear!!

Im out of Metaprolol...again! Not good, not good at all. Considering that now we're goin thru Ortho, which is so demandin, and tensionfying! How?! Would a carotid massage work, instead?

Ooh...finally watched 313 & 314 of Grey's!! Damn.... Kelly O'Mailey!! Ahahahahha...!

So, yesterday.. we sorta had a pre-Valentine's get together. Harry sorta wanted to throw a dinner party.. and so it was! We sponsored the mutton, while Harry blanja-ed evrything else! Harry made the chicken curry.. which had at least an inch of oil floating on top!! Then Eve, Shafi, Dheepa and I failed miserably at making mutton rendang, using 4 packets of Maggi Rendang Perencah.. so we decided to screw the whole rendang crap and started throwin chilli powder, curry powder, cumin powder..and evry other thing availabe and somehow, it we managed to cook up one yummy pot of mutton-something!!! *claps* Then, we stir-fried some vege.. and started making roti jala and thosais, in colours of pink, green, orange..and rainbow!!! Honestly..!! Ive got pictures, but I cant seem to transfer them into Dheepa's laptop! Amman, our new classmate made this yummy-est chicken masala....damn, made me wish I was North Indian, just for the food!! The masala chicken, was just so damn good!!!!! Then, Rooben and the gang made some sorta punch, which consisted of Sprite, Grape Juice, Lemon Juice and Strawberry Juice! Ahahahha..semangat-ness!!

So..yeah, evryone ate til we simply couldnt move.

And of all things, we started talking about silly stuffs the whole nite..and laughed so much, we nearly threw up!!! And thanks to free Life: ) calls, evryone was confrencing..despite being in the same room!! Aiyoh...!!

It was great.. evryone was around, for once. And it was just great.

*certains things... which Id rather not mention, but wanna just note as a reminder to me*

Lazy Sunday aftrnoon.. Im just bummin around, catchin up on news here and there, waitin for The so lambat Boyfriend to come online...before starting work, for tmrw!

moo moo?

Thilak's the bestest!!

Posted by anandini at 04:33 AM on February 13, 2007.

Ish... damn penat, today!

Ortho's makin me brain dead.. and draining evry ounce of energy Ive got. I wonder if it's even doin any good....*sigh*

On a happier note..He's received my Valentine's card!! *claps* And I just found out, he's got a gold box where he keeps stuffs Ive sent/made him..and some other stuffs as well *winks* So sweet...a sentimental nut, who's in love with another sentimental nut. Imagine all the sentimentalness we're gonna collect together! Aahahahaha...

Oooh...Dheepa and I love Thilak!! We love him so much..!!! He just got back from Egypt, and he brought us some KFC!! Yes tryin being away from KFC for about a year, and ya'll understand my cravings!! KFC is better than sex the answer to global warming!!

I want my laptop back. Without it, Im so kematian. I feel so empty, and just...dead

So, Student Council's all geared up.....again! Same ol, same ol..*yawns* But, ok la.. at least, this time arnd..somethin might actually be working out. Or at least, dat wat Im choosing to believe la..

Im counting the days.. for it to get to Friday!! Coz it'll be double joy... no more Ortho..and long weekend, as it'll bea holiday on Monday!!

But the week just started, and Friday seems so far to come...

Oh well..

Im too tire.. all's on my mind now is cuddlin up in bed, and doozing off.

Gudnite all.

Ooh..and Happy Valentine's Sweets...*hugs*

moo moo?

Makes the world complete..

Posted by anandini at 03:09 AM on February 14, 2007.

Finally..just a teeny weeny bit of space, to breathe..and catch my breath! Class ended early, and Ive got all nite and the whole of tmrw morning to chill...til class at 12!

We finally cooked. Dunno why, it just seems as though it's been ages since we last cooked. True enough, as we did not even have a single onion, nor potato!! Good thing, for lovely neighbours!!

Am still wonderin if my surprise plan went well or not..or did it happen at all! I must have somehow misintepreted the msg..oh well, I guess I'll only find out tmrw!

Oh..so my laptop's LCD is gone. Damn sakit..feels as though Ive lost my right arm, and foot..and evyrthing else. How am I gonna be entertained for the next 3months or so?! Im now contemplatin to get it repaired here, or just wait til Im bck in Msia..it's gonna cost me a bomb!! But, I need my laptop. For many reasons...I just need it!

Sakitness.

Dheepa's on some sorta baking spree.. she's been experimentin with weird recipes. I wonder what has gotten into her. But, I guess it's all good.. as I get deserts. But if she carries on like this, Im gonna be so pokai! Butter, eggs, sugar, milk, flour.. are not cheap!!!

Work's gotta start.. or we'll never make it on time. Work.. haih, work! Work, work, work..just hope the event turns out nicely!

Sakitness. For a different reason, now.

Dheepa asked me, how do I handle being miles away from him, during Valentine's? Well,.. it hurts like hell. But, I knw it's worth it and I knw it's just a matter of distance. We're always in each other's thoughts, deep within each other's soul. It's simply unexplainable, it's simply just as such. It hurts as hell, still. It hurts, so much. I was telling him, it literally feels as though someone's givin me a cardiac massage, squeezin the insides of me. Sakit.

Oh well..

Today, it's bigger than usual. It was fine, almost all day.. but, towards the evening, I somehow realised it has gotten bigger. I wouldnt have noticed it, if I hadnt feel as though there's an entire bucket of yellow lemons arnd my cervical region. Dammit..

I wish I had a sunflower. Do u have a sunflower?

Tmrw's gonna be pretty difficult, I can somehow sense it.. but, we'll pull thru. Rite?

I love you, Baby. And yes, of coz I'd be you Valentine. I'll always be your Valentine, just as you're mine for life *hugs*

moo moo?

Adrian...Simply the Bestest!

Posted by anandini at 07:55 AM on February 14, 2007.

OH MY GOD!! OH MY GOD!! OH MY GOD!!

I was sorta chantin that, for abt 10mins or so...and Im still in abundance of shock!

A bouquet of African Daisies, and a single white Lily!!! And a bar of Peanut Butter KitKat... for Valentine's!!!

OH MY GOD!! OH MY GOD!! OH MY GOD!!

Yes, Im still in shock! Im also pleasantly surprised, happy, HAPPY!!!, shocked, smiley, grateful, SHOCKED!!!, overwhelmed..and loved!

Room's all messy, my hair's messy too coz just had a wash... but Im all smiley!!!! *claps* Lovely flowers, aint it..!!

He's made me the HappyEST!!

African Daisies,..coz they were the closest to sunflowers! *claps*

Harry & The Boyfriend,.. on a very pleasant conspiracy!!

And just as he was getting ready for work.. he got my surprise ---> A sunflower!! Yes, the sunflower has a lot of significance between us! And he too, was pleasantly surprised!

Ahahahaha...Im too bouncy, I cant sleep!! And it's almost 2am!!

I love you so much Baby Boo.. you're the bestest, you're my greatest, you're my loveliest,.. you're just mine, for life!!

Happy Valentine's Darlin...!! *hugs tite tite*

Im still too shocked..and speechless.

More sappy mushyness..tmrw!!!

Oh.. I feel so loved! *dances around!!*

[EDIT: I wanna leave this sticky for a while..it makes me smile :D]

moo moo?

Its Friday!!!

Posted by anandini at 02:25 PM on February 16, 2007.

Ahh..it's finally here!! The FRIDAY!!!!

Ive never wanted the end of a posting so bad as this!!! Seriously..!! Ortho has been one tension-fied cycle....!! So today it'll end, I wonder with a good end, or otherwise. I dont even know, now..!

So, it's CNY soon!! Evryone back home are on hols...we here have Monday off. So, it's gonna  be a pleasant weekend!

Need to get some marketin done, desperately...! As there's nothing to cook. Like, really nothing! My fridge only has bottles of sauces, butter, a lot of nonsense, a bottle of Brahma, and food colouring! Nothing which wud even come close to a poor man's dinner! So pathetic, I feel..!!

Oooh... Eve forgot to count herself yesterday! Ahahaha..she counted ervyone, but herself!! And she's been callin me stupid for that! Eve, you're a dumb dumb too!!! Ahahahahhha...

So, today 620 will undergo a revamp! Yes, I'll post before and after pictures when it's done! All those helping, will get an ice cream from Dheepa, as a thank you note! So, come help us lift and move furniture!! Ahahahah..

Darn,..it's Friday and Im relieved, yet so anxious at the same time!

My daisies are drying up, I wanna hang them upside down and dry them, then I wanna press them and make somethin out of the petals!! But, I do not know wat yet,... but I wanna make somethin! Ish..Im so not a craftsy person~

This weekend, Im gonna see how to get my laptop runnin again. I feel so disabled without my own laptop.. I need it back! So, hopefully there's a way to get it working, and hopefully it's cheap!

Baby, you're such a meanie for tempin me with pasar malam and air mata kuching all! Dah la, yesterday you were so jahat also! U're lucky Im all the way here la...and U're lucky I love u still *hugs*muaks*

Gosh, Friday's finally here!

2 moo moo-ed

The brand new 620..!

Posted by anandini at 04:31 AM on February 18, 2007.

It sorta feels pretty weird, not dying of stress and a panic attack over Ortho. Yes, I knw... I should just shoot myself, for complaining. But, really.. it feels kinda, I dunno.. sorta like 'empty' now that it's all done. Oh well..

It was indeed an interestin journey. Whooaa.. 'journey' is such a strong word. And the fact that evyrone in 501 did pretty well, with Tkach is an added joy! Nicely done,...501!!

Ok.

We've finally gone marketing!! Oh yeah.. a hell lot! Never have I spent so much moolahs marketing alone! Well, at least there's finally food around..!! Im getting really sick of 777's food, and getting a bit too broke for McDs or just merely eating out!

LiYun's Chinese New Year open 'apartment' was a blast..! Damn kecoh.. as always, when the whole bunch gets around. Fried Chicken, Ginger Chicken, 5-spice Chicken, a lovely dish of mixed vege with corn, squid, white & black fungues and foochok, sardine pasta and sweet sour fish! Yeah, we sorta bounced around after eating.. and even after stuffin ourselves silly, we were sorta still pickin around the food.. as it was just so yummy! We even finished an entire cake, which Dheepa and I made.. and some 3kgs of Mandarins! Amazing, Id say...!! Thank you LiYun & Chong for a lovely lunch..and Happy Chinese New Year to all!!

So, Dheepa's over at 4th for some dinner thingy now... and Im left all alone in the room! And I cant decide to either read, watch Grey's 315, reply emails and Friendster msges.. or to go to sleep. It sorta sux and at the same time, lovely to be alone. I think..!

Oh yeah.. walked past 5th's lobby, and I caught a glimpse of John Grisham's A Time to Kill for sale!! For just 17bucks!! Which fool sells a JG for 17grvs?! Which fool even sells a JG!?!? Bodohnya.. I dint have any money with me at that time.. but I ran up, and got money and got the book!! *claps* Yayness!!

Oh yeah.. 620's all new and sparkling! Our beds are separated and apparently dats what evyrone first notices when they walk in!! Ahahah.. I slept peacefully last nite without having to push off Dheepa's pillows and bolster into her bed, from spilling all over mine! Nice..!! We were so semangat, we woke up and immediately made our beds. Yes, Mummy would be so proud of me..!! The new 620 looks so much more spacious, and we hope it'll collect less clutter, compared to the previous arrangement! Thank you, Rajiev, Rubben, Eve, Harry & Rajish for helping us out.. the next time we do it, we shall sedate Dheepa first. So, she'll stop pouncin right in the middle of things, when she spots loose change! :D

[BEFORE] No, the room's not usually like this.. well, at least not most of the time. Bedspreads were all taken out and beds were ready to be moved!

[AFTER] Ta-ddaaaa! Super cun..! We dismantled the L-shaped corner thingy and made it just that.. (that thingy btw the beds). Hope 620 stays as neat and tidy as this..!!

Baby..notice what's hangin on top of my bed?! Yeah.. the ones you'd want to bury and map and put it in a museum one day! Ahahhaha...

I forgot my Metaprolol today.. Im sorta doin fine now. But, as Ive learnt from experience, I'd most likely die tmrw. Or maybe not.. we'll see.

I miss him so much today. Just one of those days, when it's extra sakit. Wish I could be around when he's out havin fun,..and wish he could be around when Im out with my friends having fun. Just feel as though we're both missing out so much from each other's life. SMS and SKYPE calls make up for somethin, but not completely. Well, it's hard as hell being away, but it's worth it. It's definitely worth it. Coz he loves me too much,.. and likewise as well.

Sakitness....

moo moo?

Dheepa the pig...!

Posted by anandini at 09:17 PM on February 18, 2007.

I just have to announce this.. out to the public, and the lovely people who read M0oMo0..!

Today.. Dheepa woke up at arnd 1pm-ish, gosok gigi.. ate some cake, called home,.. read the book I bought..and rite now, she's asleep again.

Total time she's been awake ---> about 2hours! In fact, maybe less than 2hours!

Seriously.. she's gonna turn mouldy and develop decubites!!

How la she does it... the one who finds an answer should be awarded a Nobel!!

2mins or so into slumberland..and she's already snoring away!

She's so much of a pig... she should be the mascot for this year's Chinese New Year!!

But first, we've gotta make he grow a curly tail.. or least, scout for a good prosthesis! Ahahahah.. imagine how cute she'll look with a curly tail, and a snout!!! ahhahahahah....shit, this is so funny!!

If ya'll dont hear from me tmrw, or see any updates here.. Dheepa would have killed me already. Pls tell my loved ones.. I love them!!!

Oooh.. Baby, then I can be a ghost and kacau u, like dat movie.. ish, forgot wat was it called, it had Patrick Swayze and Demi Moore in it.. oh yeah, it was called Ghost!!! Wooo... damn cun movie!! And so steamy and mushy too, just the way I like it!!!

Im amazed I actually remember details of that movie! I must have really liked it... wait, I do really like it!

Ohh.. and Im all happy happy happy! Coz I just spoke to The Boyfriend on YM!! Which makes me all happy happy happy!! Despite him makin me wait for 2 over hours..!

moo moo?

How did it happen?

Posted by anandini at 03:28 PM on February 19, 2007.

Ugly. The Ugliest. Would it get uglier?

I do not know anymore...

Baby, wish you were here... Need hugs!!

moo moo?

Slowly..

Posted by anandini at 01:57 AM on February 21, 2007.

Evrything around's so post-CNYish. Well, basically evryone's still on va-cay mode! Work's gonna need some though pushin for it to start rolling...

And yes,.. we've got some wicked sense of luck within 501, that we somehow always get the killer fler.. the one fler evryone's avoidin in the whole dept, and we'll magically end up with THAT fler. Dammit..!! Jinxed to nuts la..

So, yeah. Urology's gonna be a all tensed, stressed and goddamn gila babi.. and we thought dat once Ortho was over, we'd have some lil space to breath! Backside la..!

Grey's 16.. yes, gonna watch Grey's 316, and have dinner. Have been hearing lotsa great reviews abt it.

Oh work's gotta start..it's less than 3 weeks away!!

I found a recipe for some yummy peanuts cookies. And Im gonna substitute lard for corn oil.. hopefully it works! I remember, Mum uses corn oil at home.. so I guess it'll work!!

Ahahhah..someone did somethin so funny today!!! Ahahaaahha...and someone's gonna be scratching all day!! ahaahahahaha.. It's so damn funny!!! Ahahahahaha...and no, as much as Im so tempted to say what and who, Im gonna choose to live!! ahahahaahahaa...

*grins* No details.. so, you cant hate me for it, eh!! Fair deal!!

Im slowly snapping out of it.. I need to get bck on track. He's pulling me out, he's keeping me strong.. and for now, that's all Im gonna be needing.

The Boyfriend's my bestest.. but he's vowed to be THE Bestest! And someday, he will.. he is after all, MY Bestest!! *hugs* I love you sweets, and one day.. I'll be THE Bestest, as well!!

moo moo?

Grey's 316 *spoiler*

Posted by anandini at 04:17 AM on February 21, 2007.

Shit! Just watched Grey's 16...

Dammit..mana boleh?! *bangs head*

Spoiler alert.

Meredith Grey, simply cannot mati la..!!!!! It wont be Grey's Anatomy anymore..!!

Oooh... but the sight of McDreamy, Dr Shepherd. Whooaaa....*fans* Damn hot..!! And he cries...so sedih pilu!! And how Addisson actually tries to save Meredith,..not so evil after all, eh!!

Oooh... and I think Alex's a tad sweet in 16. Especially the part over Addisson...!! Nice, he's gonna turn out great!

Baby... if I die, you'll cry ar? *grins* Like how McDreamy cried, you'll cry ar?

moo moo?

Ash Wednesday..!

Posted by anandini at 04:49 PM on February 21, 2007.

Happy Ash Wednesday, all..!!!

Yeah... Im still deciding to fast for Lent, or not! Will my metabolism handle it?! Maybe I'll just be a vegan, thrice a week. The Boyfriend approved!

Just spoke to my cousin, Dhipa, who'll be flying off to Aussie tmrw at 6am to study Radiology! Both of us go a long way back.. we're the tightest, among all. At least, until a few other young chickos grew up! Im gonna miss her around, during summer hols.. only consolation being I aint got that many of years to go, thus come December 08, we'll see each other again!!

*hugs* Take care of urself, Panjali! Dont fall in love with any hot surfboarder,... as you've got your *ahem* Mr Roberto waiting!!! Ahahahha... much love, kiddo! Hope you'll enjoy Aussie!!

So, I woke up around 10am-ish. It's so gloomy to go for classes.. I wish that could be made into a valid reason. Plus, the thought of our crazy Uro teacher is such a turn off....*sigh*

The Boyfriend threw me into fits of laughter.. over his stupidity!! Baby, you better watch out, one day Im gonna secretly do it to you...again!! Aahahhaah...!

So yeah... since I aint gonna be able to fast, I'll sustain from evilness! Yup.. I'll try my very best to! I'd like to think Im not all that evil.. so, to sustain from evilness wont be all that hard rite?!

Yeah.

Happy Fasting, ya'll...!!

moo moo?

Where art thou?

Posted by anandini at 01:58 AM on February 23, 2007.

Exhaustion.. like so damn penat, you feel all metabolic processes are starting to catabolize!!

Ok, maybe not.

Weekend's so near.. yet, so damn far!!

So, good thing AliAbuAhmeng has been postponed. Urgency's been mellowed down, and we can take things slow.. just a bit! And the weather'll prolly wont be so merciless as well.

Speakin of which.. screwd up weather we've got here! Frickin cold.. and I thought winter's over and done with?! Stooopid weather... and Im still winter-jacketless!

Oh.. contohilah Shafi, TERbuang ke dalam tong sampah!! Ahahhahaa

I made corriander chicken and some stir fry carrot thingy. Kanch once made this superb Corriander chicken, I remember it was nice. But I somehow forgot how it tasted like.. so, Im not sure if my version's anywhere close to being it :D

Mum SMSed today, saying she's sad that one more has flown away from the nest..!! Damn drama only dat woman..!! She was refering to Dhipa, my cousin who's flown down under to further her studies..nothin to be sad about, I think. But Mum being emo, will stay emo!!

Oh yeah.. The Boyfriend, ponteng-ed work coz he had food poisoning. Dunno for real or not.. he ate mushrooms and he claims it upset his stomach! Yes, he HATES mushrooms, except the buttoned ones. Im almost convinced it was psychological Gastroenteritis :D But poor fler la, he's been purging and having horrible stomach cramps all day.. and he could hardly eat anything *hugs* So, all the more reason he's gonna stay away from mushrooms now, I guess!! Dont worry Boo, you'll get better aight..!

Haih..tension. Stress. Penat.

WANT.THE.WEEKEND.

NEED.TO.RELAX.

moo moo?

What are friends for?

Posted by anandini at 06:19 AM on February 25, 2007.

Decisions.

How do you know what is right? How do you do something right, without it bring wrong? How do you help a friend, without making it seem as though you're betraying her?

The choice was hard, but I believe it was the right one. Perhaps my approach was wrong, but it still had to be done. Otherwise, someone else would have done somethin much worse, which would  hv been very ugly.

How do I make her believe, I meant no harm? How do I convince her it was very much for her own good? What more can I do or say, to show her I'm on her side, and not anyone's else? How?!

She's hating me right now, she refuses to talk to me.. perhaps to see me even. She's angry at me for wat Ive said to her about it.. and Im not blaming her.

It's just hurts. She's my closest friend around, one of the few safest bet I'd say who knows me better than anyone else. One, who goes back a long way.

Both our parents sent us off with ease, knowing we've got each other, believing we'll be there for one another, convinced we'll help each other out. And we've proven them right, thru these many years. Just hope she'll know, it's no different this time around as well.

Just hope she'll trust me again.

She questioned my decision. One which I made many years ago. One which she misunderstood. To make matters worse, it got questioned again, by someone else as well. Hurts even more.

A few good souls I can confide in, but some otherwise. They judge me, and burden me even more with other problems. Some, are just not around.. my only hope of strength, who somehow abandoned me when needed the most. Juz unbelieveable. Never was around, anyway.. come to think of it.

I wish I knew what to do. I wish I'll stop being disturbed abt it. I wish, I had someone to lean on.. I wish, I had someone around, and not feel so lonely and helpless.

And to you, my dear friend... I know things will be screwd for now, I understand things will be hard now. But you'll be ok.. yes, you will. Coz you've got me and the rest around. As much as you may hate us and be pissed at us now, we're gonna be around and help u pull thru this. I promise. Coz as Ive said many times, you're a very dear friend to me..  and I'd want things to get better for you.

There's no right or wrong. No matter what you decide to do, it'll always appear otherwise. You've just gotta do it, and survive the consequences. As what I am doing. I knew of the consequences, but I did it anyway. For you.

moo moo?

Repeats

Posted by anandini at 01:49 AM on February 26, 2007.

Crushed. Yet again.

Over and over and over... the same reasons, the same mistakes.

It's gonna be secondary always, something which Ive gotta somehow accept, as no matter what it is, no matter how ugly it is.. I've chose to accept, and go on.

Just wish, it'll reciprocate.

I know I was mean, and I admit I spoke rubbish with all those harsh words. But that is simply how I feel.

But, if it wasnt anything wrong.. and I was just assuming, why was it so hard to be explained?

Not once, twicem thrice.. but almost all the time, secondary it has been.

Resolutions, promises, chances.. are they all meant to be broken?

Show me the truth in ur words, as Im almost loosing faith in them.

Weigh it all, once and for all. Choose wisely. Think carefully. Love undividedly.

moo moo?

Pre-nervous-breakdown

Posted by anandini at 03:19 AM on February 27, 2007.

Yeah.. so a very eventful day.

She hates me.

He hates me.

Im hungry, but I cant eat.

Ive skipped too many days of medication, and Im dying.

Student Council meeting went on forever.

Too much work to handle.

We're still sour.. Im confused over what. Or maybe Im not.. I dont know.

I wish all's fine. But it aint...

Weather's effed.

Grapefruit. Lemon. Watermelon.. anything. Hate that it's pressing on my larynx.

I wish things cud be better. I want things to be better.

Grey's 17's out.. but not a single person around has it?!

And.. to make matters worse..this --->

Real blood ok... so damn sakit! And my pain tolerance's like goat shit ok!

It's the 27th.. and Im stil waitin for the magic it always brings.

I love u Baby, and I'll always do *hugs*

moo moo?

Oh.. really?!

Posted by anandini at 05:47 AM on February 28, 2007.

CSMU on ice.. no, it's not a musical. Just one hot sunny day after a heavy snowfall, and evyrthing melts.. but not completely, so it just ended up freezing back again. This time not as fluffy snow, but as semi-frozen snow... which becomes ice! Yes, everywhere was just ice. Slippery as hell. Takes forever just walkin to lectures in the morning. One helluva adrenaline rush as well, praying real hard you dont somehow slip and fall in front of juniors! Malu kingkong ok..!

But it has all sorta melted a bit more, so it aint that bad. Now it's just sluggish.. the worst kind of it all.

So.. damn penat today. Meeting from some 6pm-ish til almost 9. Then made some baked pasta thingy for dinner, showered, ate.. and studied. Dead tired.

Yeah.. speaking of which. Dead tired. Like seriously..! But then again.. hhmmm.. dunno la. It's so.. so, I dunno, so... unsettling. But it's obliviousity brought to a new height, stupidity brought to a wonderful new definition. So, Ive decided to just wash my hands, completely. But it hurts still. Very much.

Day's gone so salah all the way. Things just turnin up the way it should. It's like having Lucifer on you left, just zappin away all my happy moments. *sigh*

Imagine, mid-day.. and I was breathless. And it sporadicly lasted the whole day. Must have been all those excessive stress hormones.. *sigh*

The magic's here. It hasnt failed on me.. I knew it'll be magical, unexplainable as always. I just knew...

Baby, I love you. And I'll need you always.. regardless of what *hugs* Many more to come Sweets!

moo moo?