For good times and bad times...that's wat friends are for. Esp classmates!

Posted by anandini at 02:42 AM on October 3, 2006.

You can only get THIS tired. I think..U cannot get any more tired, than THIS. Really...

Been helpin Harry cook for the world. Yes, 25Kgs of rice (not a typo, u read rite!), a whole big (and I mean BIG, like as high as 2.5 huge MILO tins *I dint knw wat else to compare it to!* high pots!) of paneer sambal...while Dheepa, Sybile, Gaya3 and Shamala made vegetable kurma upstairs and someone else made some cucumbery thingy somewhere else. Cookin, is NO joke. Especially, cooking for the world! But it was kinda fun la..we made it fun. Rajiev was stirrin two pans of paneer, as though he was caressin *somethin somethin* on his left AND his rite (ala Playboy centerspread, geddit ar?), Eve was being Mommy-of-The-Day, and got evrythin organised and runnin smooth, who did most of the work, at the end of the day,..and LiYun ws the official carrot and cauliflower cutter! Me...I was juz being arnd. Still, damn penat wei...

We were so dedicated to help Harry, that the whole 501 screwd Social Med lecture today. How's dat. Oh well...wat are classmates for. *sings the Barney theme song*

That apart..I got really pissy over some fool today. Stupid dumb ass, dont u like ever learn? First, dun piss me off by not being punctual. Then, dun piss me off my tellin me wat to do, as though Im some 2yr old giraffe. And above all, dun piss me off by being so frickinly annoying!! Ish..

Ok..*end pissyness*

Mum msged and said she was goin for a funeral..some Aunt of hers, who stays (stayed?) near my Grandpa's place, passed away. I was tryin so hard to place a finger on who it could have been..but somehow, dun quite remember who. Yet, its sad that the dumb Angel of Death is havin one helluva feast this time arnd...!  *sigh*

Whole body's aching. A back rub would do wonders...*hint*hint*

So, Adrian wasnt pregnant after all. I was so close to that Nobel..damn it! It was just acute gastroentiritis, and nothin more. He's quite well, bowel activity and all. So, yeah..Adrian's could have been was not pregnant.

Im pretty geared up to finally come out of my shell this time. LiYun's been tellin me a lot of interesting stuffs. So, hopefully this aint gonna be one of my semangat tahi ayam-ness episodes.

Im surprised that Im typing and typing, despite me feelin dead tired. I guess my fingers aint tired. And Ive just got loads to say.

Im tryin not to think abt it all. But it aint workin la Boo...Hhhmm. Miss u. Dun eat too much chicken rice...

moo moo?

Freaky FRIDAY!

Posted by anandini at 04:03 AM on October 4, 2006.

Today feels like a Friday...coz there's no class tmrw!! Wheee...*clap! clap!* Dun have to study tonite..gonna watch at least 3 movies..get to sleep in tmrw (the bestest part of all!)..and laze around til noon, as there's only one lecture tmrw, Therapy frm 1pm til 2.30pm!! Nice..nice..nice!! I likey!

Yeah..so we ended Extreme Surgery today. Somehow, it wasnt so bad as Id thought it'll be. Pretty cool...first aid and stuffs. So now, apart frm all the other disciplines I cant decide on, being a Paramedic has gotta be the latest addition into my confused bowl, which'll determine my future!

Up next..is Hosp Surgery. Which..is surgery proper la. Aint gonna like it..as the hosp where our class'll be, is frickin far..like so frickin far. For our 8am class, I think we'll have to leave at 7 or something! And I dun like OTs, coz they make me pissy and dizzy..too stuffy, and wearin a mask all the time does no mercy as well. Ish..ish...shitty, shitty. Just hope at least we'll get a gempak cool teacher..if its a 'he', and if 'he's cute would be a plus point!

So today..the girls went out for dinner. Was supposed to be our annual buka puasa thingy we do evry year at Marakand, but today it was just Eve, LiYun, Dheepa and I. We're probably headin there again sometime next week wit Shafi, as this time arnd, she wasnt too well. Damn kecoh..we were there frm some 5-ish, til some 10pm-ish. Ate so much til we couldnt move, and was so lite headed as blood filled our mesenteric vessels instead, of those up above! Best part, we got a free ride back, as the taxi driver fell in love with Dheepa!! Ahaahahaaha..damn funny! Sometimes, dumb men are a blessing, especially blind ones! Ahahahhaha!!!

Dad was complainin that his kids has more authority above him now. Heheehehe...he banked in cash into my account, and wasnt able to access to the account after that to check the balance, as only I, the official account holder could do so! Yeah,Public Bank's full of crap..seriously. I just needed their Debit card which works quite smooth for me here, otherwise the bank's really full of crap. Really..it's like one of the crappiest bank ever! Stupid bank..Dad said he's never been so humiliated ever before! Ahahahaah..damn funny!

Today, its even harder. I cant seem to understand why. I dont seem to know wat to do. I dont know how long more will this last, this phase we're goin thru. Damn dahsyat...damn sakit. U understand rite..? Wat to do? Tell me, please....

Hhmmm.....

Ok..off to chillin and kickin back to a pseudo-Friday! Just to keep busy...dat'll be the trick. It works sometimes, but hardly justifies anything.

moo moo?

Happy Birthday RYAN!

Posted by anandini at 04:21 AM on October 5, 2006.

Had a good start to the day. In fact..it was lovely.

Went for the Therapy lect at 1..and got bck at 2.30. Watched Remp-it after that.

Then shit happened. Hhmmm....Got me so sad. Why? I dun even know. I promised myself, it aint gonna happen. But it did. Friends who dont appreciate friends anymore. Hhmmm...really sad. We cried. That bad.

Then we went to Buffulo Bill for Ryan's birthday! At least dat somehow felt so good. Ryan's a darling...! Food was good, we had fun, somehow. Really got my mind away from evrything which has been crappy and all. Ryan's just great. He always makes me feel good over things, and I can talk to him just about anything. Ryan's a darling *hugs* Happy Birthday Ryan! We love you!!

But, now..juz as Im about to go to sleep, it's disturbing me again. Hhhhmmm...so sad how things got this bad. So sad. So hurt by the words he said. I dun think I deserve to get all these.

Baby..wish so much you were here. Need those comfortin hugs, which alwys shoos away all yuckyness. Wish you were here Boo....

Hhhmmmmm.

Yeah, so now I know..who true friends are. Nice.

I probably dun wanna have anythin to do with you, ever. At times Im happy for feeling this way, and Id say there are times its gonna saddened me. But I'll live with it. I'll slap my mind of being to shittyly sentimental and screw it all. Eff you, man. You're juz full of shit.

*hug*?

2 moo moo-ed

Of all things....

Posted by anandini at 01:55 AM on October 6, 2006.

Yeah..so we got the nicer of the only two teachers in Lugowoye's Surgery Dept. Damn gempak...She's cool, she's sweet..and she's simply lovely. She 'set us free' at 10.45am today, instead of the routine 12!! Hope she stays sweet...! And LiYun and I had the loveliest and sweetest patient today. She made her guess her age, LiYun banged 60, she turned out to be 76! Oooppss....! So, yeah..Surgery's goin pretty fine.

Was all so xcited to go to Bogdan and all for dinner..but somehow it got postponed to tmrw! Got all hyped out..got a few ppl hyped up! Hehehehe..damn funny! So, now Im havin Instant potato puree (which is actually quite good!) with some fresh tomatoes, accompanied with really grand omellete with capsicums, onions and crabsticks!

Adrian made his famous yummy spaghetti today. I also want..!! He made the same frickin yummy one on 27th of July. I want..I want!!

Ok..no hot water. Gonna shoot someone.

True friends..they exist. One called my house to ask if I was ok..one SMSed me a million times..one left a comment on MooMoo..one was just arnd. One too many asked wat was wrong...to think Ive got all these lovely people, I doubt I'll ever be needing one asshole to ruin it all for me. So yeah..screw you! *claps*

Iv been gettin my dose of lovelyness evry mornin. Hope it stays that way..it does wonders to my day!

I love u, Baby!

moo moo?

Sat & Sun...me likey!

Posted by anandini at 08:27 PM on October 6, 2006.

Fresh bile calculus...! Yeah...like literally fresh!! Met lady --> lady got wheeled in for laparotomy --> surgeon inserted hand wrist deep into lady --> found huge inflammed gallbladder --> resected gall bladder --> our sweet teacher tore open gallbladder with bare hands (witout glove, mind you!) --> a whole lotta bile and stuffs spilled out --> 4 stones was revealed --> which she then passed to us, still-in-shock-501! Cool-factor on a sky-hi scale!

Then, Dad sent me some ultimately grossy-fied email on deep fried rats bein mistaken for chicken... with the whole process of cooking those rats! Really, really gross!

So..appetite for dinner has officially been tomato-squashed!

But I wanna go to Bogdan still!!!

Adrian's been workin like crazy..poor thing. But then again, so has evryone, as I was chattin with Dad and my uncle, thru Gmail..and it's 8.15pm in Msia. I guess it's some kinda work-ur-ass-off-Day in Msia or somethin. Or they're just simply busy. The latter, perhaps.

Been squintin my eyes..lookin at yahoo images for the past 3 hours! And I finished my coke! Damnit!

Wheee...the weekend's here! Lovely...

Dheepa's gonna kill Eve..Dheepa's gonna kill Eve...Dheepa's gonna kill Eve!!

moo moo?

Bounce,..Bounce...Bounce....

Posted by anandini at 04:21 AM on October 7, 2006.

Its just a norm for humans, to be juz plain dumb..or simply Neanderthal-like stubborn headed! We tried to stay away from it..judging from previous experience. We repeatedly told ourselves, reminded ourselves of the consequences of it..Yet, *sigh* we always end up regretin it. Yeah..Bogdan. Damn, we get so stuffed, we literally telepathicly try to communicate with our pyloric sphincter to relax to fasten gastric evacuation. One pork fillet btw some mushrooms, tomatoes and lotsa ham thingies, btw a chicken fillet and lotsa cheese on top of it, Bogdan's signature dish. With a side of potato puree (which is basically mashed potatoes, witout milk!) I make it sound like its not big deal, eh...you should try it for ur own, to believe me! *sigh*

Bouncin off the walls...

I was readin the Sept 04 issue of Cleo...and found it so funny. I cant explain why. It was juz funny.

I miss Babez. She SMSed me today, tellin me about my lovely Meera. I wanna see pictures at least la...*sigh* So shitty being so far!

Adrian ate some real ulu-fied instant noodles today! Ahahahaha..damn funny!

I wanna have beef satays, from Slumber! Damn it! Boo..how? I want!!

Gonna go to sleep

moo moo?

Aint always a bed roses...sunflowers are pretty as well.

Posted by anandini at 02:14 AM on October 8, 2006.

Today marks another shitty spell..one which has not occur in a long time. Today it got to me really bad. Im still wonderin wat must hv caused it, as I hardly did anything today. No physical exertion at all. Damn shitty to go dying like this...dont quite understand wat have I done to suffer goin thru crap like this. Oh well..and so they say, life goes on.

Somehow scaldin myself while bathing, dint do much lovelyness to my day as well..yeah, the water was too hot!

And stupid Skype wont accept Dad's credit card. It redirected me to some HSBC website,..which I couldnt view. I was so hoping it'll work. Ive got one too many people Id like to hear from..

I want a whole can of whipped cream. All for myself..some strawberries too. Adrian, too...perhaps.

At least my 49 year old Mum's having fun! She just SMSed me, at 2.07am in Malaysia. Lovebirds juz got bck from a movie or somesort. Cute that they're enjoyin the lovelyness of each other still..

Yeah and so...

Wish things were better. Coz I hate it when it's like this. Yet, crap like this are inevitable...somehow. It happens. To wish it doesnt, is like wishin for world peace. Hhmmm...feelin shitty, is shitty.

To get really sedated and to sleep. Halleluya for Valeriana.

No, Im not sad. Maybe I am. I dunno.

I wish I had a sunflower. I wish.

moo moo?

This thing we call love...

Posted by anandini at 10:45 PM on October 8, 2006.

I love Dad's credit card. And I love SKYPE!! YEah..spoke to Mum&Dad, and Dinesh,..and Adrian. Then a whole lotta more people! WHeee...I likey!

Love. Real roller-coasterish, sickeningish yet fun..makes u wanna juz go on it again and again. It makes you all mad, makes you cry for all the wrongs things, makes you feel really lonely, gets you all worked up and for invalids like me, dats not so much of a good thing. Yet,..in the end, after all those mean words exchanged, after all that has been said and done..you'd still never be witout it, witout love. That's why, when Im an ass..I know he loves me still. And when he's an ass, I'll love him still, as well. It just works dat way, y'knw..sentimental and fundamental universal rules aside, that's just the way it works. All those lil things which arise, turns into a huge fireball of crap..and in the end of the day, to kiss and to make up (even it being thru the phone~) does wonders.

That's why me loves me Adrian!

Unless, if he cheats on me...of sleeps arnd...or hits me. Then he's a goner. Which I know will never happen, but just settin the records for the uninformed.

Yeah and so...first time Im being so open about love, eh. Gives me goosebumps!

Im all happy now. *claps hands*

But..hhmmm. Being sick aint nice. Especially when evryone's all out doin somethin, and Im stuck in the room doin nothin. And esp when I cant be out helpin Dheep with her deco stuff thingy. Hhmm,....yeah. Oh well..

Im so happy,..I actually dont care dat it'll be Monday tmrw!!!

0_o I just ate some balance of yesterday's dinner for dinner, today! If I dun wake up tmrw, I love ya'll! Mail my parents, and ask them to come get me..in a very pretty coffin,pls!

The Lovebirds have been out shoppin all day...according to an inside source (my 17 yr old brother!), they left at noon, and were still out when I called home earlier arnd 9.40pm, Malaysian time. I then called one of the lovebirds' mobile, to learn that they were on their way back, in a commuter!! So puppy-love-ish wei!! I even heard giggles!!Yeah..yeah...silly kids!

I secretly hope my marriage (the one to-be), will end up like wat they've got. The lovebirds. SO lovely..

*sappy mode on high*

Gonna go blast some Bryan Adams..

2 moo moo-ed

And we the painters..!

Posted by anandini at 03:51 AM on October 10, 2006.

Just came back frm my painting job. Yeah,..Eve, Sybil and I are the painters. Coz we suck at drawing, well at least I do. So, we paint. And we're also the 3D Design Experts (self-acclaimed!)..all for world peace. Actually, for the upcomin Deepavali celebration..we're were completing the banners! Today, all that was done was the drawin and sketching part..so we the painters had nothin to do *winks*

Im havin a nice servin of muesli (which has dried bananas, which is surprisingly good!) with full cream milk with 2 spoons of Milo! Nice..

Im so happy today...

Im finishin up my Skype credit as though its cheap vodka! Damn..gotta go slow on it!!

The lovebirds had one helluva adventure yesterday!! AHahahahah..damn funny! They got on the wrong commuter, and found themselves headin to Seremban, instead of KL Sentral! And Dad told Mum to get tickets to Bank Negara, as he parked the car at the Shah Alam station..but Mummy dear bought tickets to KL Sentral instead!! Hahahahhaah..and due to that, Dad spent a bomb in KL Sentral, as there was some sorta Indian Festival goin on there, and Mum bought a whole lotta stuffs!! Ahahahhah,....!!

 Dheepa's finally got her hands on some cotton buds..to u knw, clean her auditary canals..and she's orgasmic!

So,...Anan's got aims. More like resolutions
1. To save money
2. To be nice to people
3. To not speak, hear or have anythin to do wit Asshole (Rite, B?)
4. To learn to understand His schedule and not sulk too much...
And I think today, Ive done pretty well..*claps*

Ok..gotta study. Ta....~!

Me loves ya'll...

Me loves you too, Boo....!

moo moo?

You, my friend. Me, your friend. Now share the damn Grey's!

Posted by anandini at 12:42 AM on October 11, 2006.

Rite now,..Id kill for episodes 303 & 304 of Grey's Anatomy. No, seriously. Bloody crappy suspense they put us thru..super evil-ish, y'know! ISh...Am not gonna try downloadin it, as Ive heard someone's already got it. Please,...Anan's been a good girl..gimme, gimme please! GIMME!!

Oh well...

And yet another herniaectomy. Why la..why do they torture us with herniaectomies all the time. Although, ya la..its not like we know all there's to know abt it...but the fler had one massive hydrocele as well. Couldnt they have done that first? So we would have been able to watch the entire procedure..damn it la! Would have been good...hydrocele!

Asked Shafi...and yes, that's Shafinas bt Anwardeen..so, asked Shafi what holiday it was in Malaysia today,...and all she did was grin. Literally ear to ear! Real cekodokness...kebodohan to the ultimate la. *Slaps forehead* She would have probably known if it was CNY or Deepavali or somethin...but not if it was Nuzul Quran!

I need to wax/tread my upper lip. Its about time, as it's starting to block my vision. Ok, maybe not that critical..but somewhat there la. But, Im too chicken shit to do it. Is there like some universal pill which increases your tolerance to pain, by a fifteen fold degree, at the least? Apart from the ever so famous Voltaren la. Tu pun,..after some 4 hours, you feel the pain, all sakit and all, again! So how la? How come Im so shitty when it comes to withstandin pain? Beranak in the future...God only knows how!

Weather's been all pissy. Sejuk giler, when it's only early October!

And that does crap to me..as the cold kills me. Literally,..or so I think la. What else explains the worsenin of my condition, straight 2 days in a row now. I start dying, just tryin to breathe..from the mornings itself! Crappy la..

Oh..and today we had one shitty Epidemiology lecture! To think we'll be spendin 9 days wit her soon...real soon! DIe!

All that, and I still feel all so bubbly and lovely! Coz He's been leavin me notes here and there, and they make me happy! *hugs*

Goin out to Neapold for dinner. Im juz craving for their blinchiks (French Pancake-y thingy, filled with chicken, cheese, mayo..!) Frickin good!

moo moo?

CSMU's 75!

Posted by anandini at 01:21 AM on October 13, 2006.

Crimean State Medical University turns 75 tmrw. And so, it's an official holiday, tmrw!! Nice, too bad next year it'll only be the 76th Anniversary, and thus aint so significant, and thus no holiday..oh well, tmrw's a holiday, so it's all goodie!

Tmrw's also Friday the 13th. How ironic.

Things are getting pretty bad. Cant place a finger, on why it's worsening. Had one of the worst ever spell last nite,..thought I'd actually die. Somehow, Im actually gettin used to being all out of breath and all,..and I find it sad and pathetic, that Im gettin accustomed to somethin which is actually killing me slowly. Real shitty..What to do? Any famous endocrinologist out there? I need a consult.

Today we started Epidemiolgy. I think it's gonna be one stressful cycle. Hardly have breaks, btw our 8am-12pm class. We literally ran to the cafes to have our breakfast,..as our lioness is so particular over time! Real crappy...

Oh well..

I'm craving for some chicken satays and wan tan mee.

And I've learned, that you shouldnt rate songs in your Media Player library when you're super high on sappyness. Almost all songs tend to be '5 star-ed'..! Yeah, and I discovered Ive hardly enough Bryan Adams and Phil Collins. And Grey's Anatomy OST seems to be overcrowding my playlist!

Oh...Berita Terkini ---> Rajiev and **v** sitting on a tree...**c*ing!! ahahhhha..I might get killed for this. But then again...*zaap*

So, Dad's really serious over the whole court case thingy against SJMC. Pretty cool, and Im pretty excited about it. Coz Mum and I were really ill-treated while we were there, and Doctors there should be whacked silly for being so dumb! Imagine, I was wheeled in the ER one Friday, having severe inspiratory dyspnea..and the attending Doctor, actually tells my mum, 'All my career, Ive never seen a case like this..with just inspiratory dyspnea alone!' *slaps forehead* Like...WTF rite? And the dumb fart who removed the Mum's micropore with his FINGERNAILS, thus bruising her chest! So, seriously..the case is all good! Trust me, dun ever go to SJMC, it's shitty as hell. While I'm at it..dun go to Public Bank as well, equally shitty!

Adrian just msged me, to remind me that it's Friday the 13th tmrw,..and he's tryin to freak me out as he said tmrw all the hantus will be out! 0_o Yes, Im afraid of hantus..but still! Ahahahah..so cute!

I wanna inhale, fill my lungs,alveoli and all..with air. Just simple as that..just once, I wanna breathe normally. Without having to grasp for air. Can? Hhmmm...

Oh well...gonna continue rating songs in my playlist.

I miss Babez. Wonder how she's doing.

I love u, Boo.

Happy Birthday CSMU!

moo moo?

Pissyness on high.

Posted by anandini at 03:17 AM on October 15, 2006.

I think I just ate paint. Yeah..er, perhaps.

Been spendin the past few days painting and painting and painting. Yeah, some  4 banners, 4-5meters each. Yesterday, I was also elbow deep in my very gagal-fied effort of makin paper mache. It got really ooey and gooey,..but was kinda fun.

So all that, and plus the run-arnd birthday parties we had to attend last nite. Yeah, Gayatri Parallel turned a year wiser yesterday,..! Happy Birthday Girl! And the other was our new classmate's boyfriend's Birthday, which we somehow got invited to. Good north indian food, but too much of it, as he kept feedin us as though we were just rescued from some tsunami site!

Been dying pretty dahsyatly the past 2 nites as well. That's why tonite, Ive decided to just stay in and chill...catch my breathe a lil. T4's are acting up pretty wild. So frickin screwd up, makes me all retarded and all. Oh well..

Adrian's out with his friends. People I once knew,...er, still know actually. It's 3.30am, and he's not back and his phone's dead. So, bein the normal freako-paranoid one I am,..Im freakin out. Hhmmm..dun gimme that look ok, things happen ok. Yeah..watever la.

Yeah..so, Im pissy.

I shud just go get some sleep.

Wish he's ok. And hope he msges me real soon. Coz being anxious aint good,..it kills. Literally.

Eve called herself mutton today. Or was it yesterday. I dunno, I cant remember,..but Eve called herself mutton.

Ive decided to live alone. And no, I dun mean witout Adrian. Just not gonna get too dependent and attached to some people arnd. It's gettin too shitty.

And so..Gnite.

moo moo?

And so evryone lived happily ever after. I think..

Posted by anandini at 06:26 PM on October 15, 2006.

Woke up at noon today. Its 1.20pm, and my Metaprolol and Carbimazole still aint circulatin within my blood yet. Thinkin of skippin it today...but maybe not. Or maybe yes?

Had the last packet of MeeSedaap's Mee Goreng for brunch. Comfort food, a delicacy. Try being miles away frm home, and u'd understand my definition of delicacies.

Evrythin's pretty shitty now. His phone is still switched off, since 10pm last nite. Wonder where is he, and how's he doin. Somehow, am not all that worried, but a bit disappointed over certain matters. Nevermind that. Then, there's this whole crappy thing goin on btw a someone someone as well. So rotten la. *sigh* The wall's gettin thicker by the day, perhaps that's just how it was meant to be frm the start. And no, Im not referin to 'asshole'!

So much to do. So much to think of. So many people to assemble. And yet, so frickin lil time!

Gonne call Mom&Dad and gayut wit them. Waitin for it to be 8pm back in Msia. Hopefully they'll be at home.

Moral of the story: Save your MeeSedaap for rainy days. It does wonders.

Had some 'alone' time. Am still wonderin if it helped..

[EDIT: Just had a 30min conversation wit Mum&Dad..that helped! They're all gearin up for Deepavali. Mum was makin fun of Dad, just as Dad was makin fun of Mum. Wish I could be home,...]

moo moo?

The effect of fermentation...

Posted by anandini at 02:20 AM on October 16, 2006.

So, we've been havin our meals at Neapold for 3 days in a row now.Food's real good, and it's comparitively cheaper than most places..so no complains, actually. But as what Rajiev the Rat said, it'll be way cooler, if we were entitled to some kinda Neapold membership card thingy, where we get a discounts on watever we order!

Just downed 1tab of Metaprolol and 1tab of Asparkam with some ice-cold Brahma. What could possibly happen, eh? So far, so good...I think.

We got pretty wet walkin bck frm Neapold earlier. I wouldnt have mind the rain, come to think of it..but I was kinda sad that my sweater was gettin wet. Otherwise, I think I could have use the ice-cold rain..

Hhhmmm...

How can anyone be so insensitive? Jane Arden's workin her charm on me, pretty nicely. Wanted to know how my day went it seems...ppfftt! Yeah rite. Hhhmmm....*sigh*

Brahma all finished. Was thinkin,..would too much Brahma accentuate the adiposity btw my rectus abdominus? If Im gonna don a saree comin Saturday, perhaps the Brahma's gotta slow, eh. *mental note*

Damn. Deepavali's comin up. Hate festiveness. My 5th Deepavali away frm home. Being away from home and all, it's just so shitty. Make me cry every year, witout fail! Oh well...

It's rainin. Phil Collin's 'Wonderful Tonite' is on repeat. Forget rat poison, this kills even more.

So, had a whole day of siesta today, well sort of. Gotta get movin on work tmrw. Loads to be done. Sorta not lookin forward to it, but Ive given my word..so, yeah, gotta get goin.

Babez, wish u were arnd!

LiYun showed me this. It's pretty cool, but Im still wonderin how it works. Interesting.

Am gonna watch The Break-Up, and fall asleep. Ironic. Hhmm...it better not be sappy!

2 moo moo-ed

When all fails..

Posted by anandini at 08:38 PM on October 16, 2006.

It's apathy. Yeah, I think that's what's happenin. Desirelessness.

How can one be online, and yet not online at the same time? It appears online, but no one's at the other end. Silly. More like, screwd!

Grandma's complainin of chest pains, but just as most old (above 40 yrs) adults, they think they're somehow superhero-ish built, and somehow figured that all anatomical dysfunction is, and will somehow turn out to be, self-limiting. *sigh* She refuses to get it checkd up. Not even a simple ECG.

Master of Ceremony. Why Master and not Miss? Or Mistress?

He was to busy, again. Or perhaps just clueless. Either way, it sux.

Dr. Gaffarava said it might rain today,..evryone nodded and acknowledged. Shafi, being the cekodok she is, asked..'When, Ma'am?' Dr. Gaffarava replied,..'2.15pm..'   0_o

I wish I had a bottle of Medeof in the room,..but then again, maybe not. Yet, I still wish I had some, NOW!

*sigh*

Reading my past entries,..they seem to sadden me even more, as the previous entries sound depressing as ever. Hhhmmm...well, this is MY canvas, and I AM feeling such. Mum's words just keep ringing somewhere in my 4th ventricle,..'It's just a phase, and it'll soon pass.' Soon. Yet..hhmmm. Oh well...

moo moo?

DaIsies vs sunflowers?

Posted by anandini at 12:18 AM on October 18, 2006.

So..daisies are still rotten. But at least, they're daisies. Sunflowers would be nicer and prettier, but then again..those are too much to ask for. Plus, it carries a whole different meanin towards it.

Despite Rajiev the Rat and Eve remindin me a thousand and twenty eight times to add sumore Carbimazole into my daily medicine packet thingy...dear silly me forgot! Unbelievable! A short break btw Epidemiology was at 10,..arnd 11 I thougt I was gonna die. Survive till almost 11ish before I took my 4tabs of Carbimazole. And due to that, and the frickin cold weather, I was havin sporadic attacks of severe inspiratory dyspnea, til this very frickin minute..! Really sick of not being able to be normal..so shitty.

LiYun says the stress and the sakit hati-ness probably could be added as one of the ethiological factors as well. I somehow think so myself.

3 days til Deepavali Villa '06. Really cant wait for it all to end. Like literally END! Finito!! It's always like this...you get all excited in the begining of the event and all, and as it nears..you just cant wait for it to be finished, ALREADY!! Damn banyak kerja wei..!!

Yeah so..been puttin it away, tucked away under all the sorrowness. But then again, who am I foolin. Hhmmm...real shitty.

Nevermind that.

Gonna go have dinner. Good thing 777 serves good chicky bryani. Yeah, in Ukraine Babeeeh!

Hhmmm.

Why does a Brahma stir a whole lotta thoughts arnd?

Oh yeah...lookin at it gave my angina-lika pain. It was evrywhere...so I changed it. Hhmmm...*sigh* How did it get to this extent?

Out of the blue, was juz wondering if Mum&Dad taken the time off to post me my Deepavali card...or anyone, for that matter. It's lovely to receive snail mail once in awhile. When I was in 1st year or so, evryone semangatly wrote to me..family and friends. But that slowly died off. Just a thought. Will I be receivin any snail mail anytime soon? It sure will be lovely..*hint*

Gonna go study. Then sleep,..feelina lil lite headed..

moo moo?

So, what happens now?

Posted by anandini at 04:34 AM on October 19, 2006.

Its 11.30pm, we just crashed McDrive..and Ive finally had my BigTasty! Damn..for the uninformed, McD's BigTasty is THE ultimatum. I'll post a picture of it some time soon, if I could tahan my hungryness from gettin to it first..!

Things are startin to pick up...glad at least that's keepin my mind away from things. Banners are up as well, and they're simply lurve-ly! Truly..*claps* Great job, ya'll!!

BigTasty and Thai Chilli sauce...*licks*

So, things are sorta wiped swish swash now...I guess. But, am still pretty traumatised. To me, the unexpected has happend. I never would have imagine it happenin, with..y'know. Hhmmm...aint always lovely. No, I guess it will be more correct to say it was too lovely to be true. Should have known, those kinds are only in FairyTales, Hindi movies at the very most. Hhmmm..scar's still there, bleeding. Gotta just dress it up, and go on. Took it for granted perhaps, to a certain extent. Hhhmmmm..will things be the same now? Honestly, I do not know.

*sigh*

Thought of gettin a Brahma,..but thought against it in the end.

T4s are at their worst. Like really bad...really really bad. Even typing seems so be straineous. Crappy.

Tmrw's gonna be the last day before a long holiday..! But aint gonna much of a holiday, wit Deepavali Villa 06 to work on..*pouts* Damn.

2 moo moo-ed

Finally..when?

Posted by anandini at 04:40 AM on October 20, 2006.

*claps* 4-day-weekend ahead!! But aint gonna be much of a holiday,..at least not until Deepavali Villa '06 is over and done wit.

Yeah,..CSMU-ians. Deepavali Villa 6.30pm, 21st Oct '06, Dom Kultura. Ya'll oughta knw by now..juz thought Id mention it still.

Black Nescafe kills. So, Im serious. Finally figured why Ive been dyin evry mornin for the past few days, after breakfast. Ive been havin coffee..which is a psychostimulator, which accelerates cardiac activity..and sorta leads to the unexplainable inspiratory dyspnea Ive been having. Damn,..and I like coffee. Patheticness..

Weather's been gila-fied. Frickin cold..way too cold, for this time of the year. Damn cannot tahan...but today I was well dressed. I dug out my winter clothes, and wore a turtle neck,..escaped kena-ing marah frm ppl of 501!!

Today Dr. Gaffarava came along for breakfast, and while we were having breakfast, she entertained us with horror stories...!! Then she started speakin of her father, who passed away some years back, and she got all teary and all..and we headed back to class.  

I think Im still apathic. Just a lil, not all that much. Things are better, or so I think. But still..hhhmmm. Nevermind,..its somehow unexplainable.

777 ran out of Brahmas. So I had a Stella instead. Then Eve and I went down to the kiosk and got another Stella. It calms my nerves. Nuff said.

Gonna get some shut eye. Tmrw's gonna be long... 

moo moo?

Happy Deepavali ya'll..!

Posted by anandini at 04:53 AM on October 21, 2006.

Happy Deepavali ya'll..!

I dun quite like festiveness,..5th year away fr home for Deepavali. Damn shitty,.really, nothin could ever get any shitty-er. Being arnd family, the good food, all those cookies and the traditional stuffs like muruku and ghee balls (my fave!), the new clothes, the mornin prayer, the fire works session. Hhhmmm..and the one thing which I miss most, and brings tears to my eyes,..Mum rubbin gingerly oil on my head on Deepavali mornin, before having my bath. Shitty,..hhmmmm.

So, just like the previous 5 years which has passed..Im generally a depressed child on this day. Yes, Im homely. And very sentimental. Not so much of the tradition, but just miss being home. Crap.

And with Deepavali Villa '06 drainin all of my time, and energy..there's hardly any much for us to celebrate. No cooking, the room's not even cleaned, and no mornin breakfast of thosai and chicken curry and wat nots. Nothing...evryone's too tired and too occupied with Deepavali Villa '06.

11pm 21st Oct 06. I'll be the most relieved person.

One of my neighbour was nice enough to give Dheepa and I a plate of some Deepavali goodies. Pulli sore (my fave!!), ponggal sore, kesari and some of those boiled chick pea thingy, which me loves.

Miss home. And family. Damn.

All's good now. Im no longer pissy. We've realised our mistakes. I feel all alive, as though Ive got my heart pumping again. Yeah, I may sound drama-queen-ish,...but try loving someone with your all, and you'll get my drift.

Ive yet to wax my upper lip. Damn. Anan needs more time, ya'll...

I love you, Baby.

Happy Deepavali, ya'll..!

moo moo?

Deepavali..or, so it was.

Posted by anandini at 06:14 PM on October 23, 2006.

Deepavali's over. Actually more of, Deepavali Villa '06's finally over!! Finito...wasnt so bad actually, if one would juz remember all the fun times, working with some nice people and all. But damn pissy when it comes to those idiots, who's got panda testicles as brains! Waitin for the PostMortem, so I can sing certain devotional tunes, and curse like hell..ok maybe not. But Id juz wanna voice my utter disgust, over evrything which has happend. Apparently, the show generally was good..despite certain technical glitches here and there. Being on stage, was euphoric..to a certain extent. Wasnt so bad la...still the bitterness and effed up politics and gila-kuasa-ness, membati buta style..just shadowed the whole event in utter crappyness.

I could go on actually..over why Im so pissy about. But nevermind, Id rather voice it out to those certain people instead..the dumbest of the dumb asses! But one thing's for sure,..Im never gonna work with these 2 fools ever again. The rest of the team was fine, actually...except these two fools!

All the hoo-hah and all..we hardly had time to even celebrate Deepavali!! So, last nite we made thosai, ikan bilis sambal, puri and some dhal curry...whackd food till the ultimate kenyangness!! Been too deprived of home-cooked meals..as we've been succesfully contributing to Neapold's and 777's bursa saham!

We had a lil dinner thingy last nite..with Rajiev and Eve. Then, we got some Brahmas (err,..actually a lot of Brahmas!!!), the Taboo game set, a stack of Uno, and Monopoly...and a room (wait, just 2 la) of tipsy people!! We played Taboo till it was sunrise, literally..!! Aida, Rajiev and LekhaLekha were in one team..and Eve, Dheepa and I were in another team. Never expected us to win as...well, alco effect was much higher on our side!

Before that we played Win or Die Uno...where the looser of each round gets a penalty! So, in the last round..someone got their faces conteng-ed like hell...wit lipgloss, eyeliner, flourescent highlighter, blue mascara, lipstick(s), and some whole lotta glitter stuffs...and the picture's to be don over Mo0M0o...!! Here it is..

Damn sexy eh...check out his glossy lips!

Prior to that, LekhaLekha had to swallow one teaspoon of raw oyster sauce!! ahahaaaha...and TomatoFace aka Eve, did Dheepa's rollin on the floor stunt thingy..in exchange for some cheesecake! ahahaahah..damn kecoh! Miss havin this much of fun...and missed hanging out wit LekhaLekha,..who was juz so cute last nite!

That's LeeKumKee oyster sauce ya'll..damn precious!!

Damn funny..Aida's function of a tongue(*censored*)..ahahaaah!

Times like this, kinda miss having Kanch arnd..

Oh...and LekhaLekha's bharatanatyam performance has been ranked numero Uno among all the performance during Deepavali Villa '06! It was so goddamn good..really immaculate. Damn cun, damn mesmerizing! Good job girl!! *hugs*

Oh..and I made an Emmy Awardish level blunder on stage..and evryone's gonna remember it til dinasours choose to roam Africa and France again..and the joke's never gonna die! Aiseh..damn slack. Slip of tongue la..

He fell of his bike, while taking a fast turn..MatRempit style I guess. Hurt his back pretty bad, and scrapped his elbow. I dun like him on motorbikes, but he doesnt bother. He thinks he's some super hero who wears his underwear outside, coz to him getting hurt is juz like peeing standing...! SO stubborn,....!!! And he refuses to get it checkd up..and thinks Stout is a very effective remedy...*steams!!* But it has been so long since we spoke of things..so much Id wanna know, and so much Id wanna say. Me misses him...

Gotta complete my assignment for Dr. Gaffarava. Tmrw's the finito of Epidemiology. Oncology next..

Oh and my Skype's down to 0.38 Euros!! Damn sedih...Must have finished it calling the world, to convey Deepavali Greetings, over the past few days! Me wants more Skype credit..!

Happy Hari Raya ya'll...Anan loves lemang, rendang and nasi impit wit kuah kacang. When ya'll whacking all these,..think of dear me ok! Dun play wit meriam buluh...try paip PVC instead, safer! :D

moo moo?

Posted by anandini at 04:42 AM on October 24, 2006.

And again, it happened.

Worst than ever,..once again, never thought Id see the day to this.

Hhmmm....

moo moo?

And Im the lucky-est-est person ever..!

Posted by anandini at 03:21 AM on October 28, 2006.

Im happy today...!!

And..I have the bestest sayang ever!!

Yes,..sappyness and emo-ness on high!

We had too much to eat..mutton dhalcha, mutton paretal, rasam and ghee rice. Good food...and Brahma!! Eve, Shafi, Rajiev, Dheepa and I...damn full, damn cannot move!!!

Im so happy..Im so hyper..Im so content...and Im breathless!

Rajiev's dumb boy..and weird boy.

Eve has a something friend, an imaginary person she was playing Uno with. 0_o

Im happy..Im happy..Im happy!!!!!!!

I love you, Adrian..!!!! SO goddamn much! *hugs*muakz* You're the bestest!

moo moo?

Freaky Friday..

Posted by anandini at 06:13 PM on October 28, 2006.

Woke up at noon...only to the call of Carbimazole.

And the fact that we're gonna have one good catch-up, on each other coz we've been pretty squashed pineapples-ish, for the past 2 weeks!! *claps* Yeahness...!

Last nite..was pretty cracked! Damn yummylicious food...simple, yet gastronomically mind blowing...!! And of coz,..what's a cracked nite, without the ever faithful Brahmas...ice cold. Aahh...

So, we played Uno a lil..then played Monopoly, which I won, and evryone else gave up!! And it wasnt me who had BOTH Boardwalk & Parkplace..!! But I had all the railroads, and hotels over at St. Charles, Virgina Ave & States Ave...yes, those cheap, purple-ish (magenta!!) flers just after the jail!! Hahhhahah...damn funny! Stupid banker, being a bit influenced (!) was giving out money to almost evryone, quietly! And also properties..!! Dheepa, on Brahma...!

Then Aida came...and we played Taboo!!! Ahahahaha..last nite was the funniest Taboo game ever!! Aida, Dheepa and I were in one team...the one which won (!!)..and Rajiev, LekhaLekha and Eve were in the other team..the one which Rajiev had to constantly wake them up or sumthing! AHahahaha....

And so, during the Taboo....
1. The word was SHAVE..Rajiev said, something I need...LekhaLekha said..'CONDOM!!!'...!!! AHahaaah..Rajiev's single (for now!) and a condome? Now we know wat runs thru her mind, with Rajiev!!

2.The word was RUBBER..Anan said, the thingy u get when u tap a tree..Dheepa..oh my this is too funny..Dheepa said..'WOOD!!!!!' we were like...WTF? 0_o Ahahahha... traumatized Geography subjects she must have had..as when you tap a tree, Dheepa actually thinks wood comes out of it..!!! Aiyoh...~!

3. The word was EMU...a bird ok, a bloody bird!! Bird, burung kinda bird ok..so, Anan said, a large animal which flies or something, earlier there was an ostrich..this is somethin like it...and dear smarty-backside Aida said 'OCTUPUS!!!' Eeeeeii...we were just speechless. Coz evryone was rolling on the floor!!

Had a few more la..but *grins* nevermind those la, ok!

Yeah..so I bow when I enter the room! Gonna die for this...forgot wat the word was...but Rajiev said, somethin u do when u enter a room..and pretty tipsy Anan said 'you BOW!'... *grins* What? I was thinking of the Japs la, seriously!! Damn,..so now they're gonna make me bow evrytime I enter a room..gone la!

And ya'll couldnt have played Taboo without me la...coz almost evrything pun..'Anan has..'...or 'Like Anan...'...or the more often 'Adrian and Anan...!!' Ahahhhah...

1.LekhaLekha peepin into the Jar to see if its tomato paste... 2. LekhaLekha digs in!! 3. LekhaLekha's having second thoughts..thinkin of acute tomato intoxication!! 4. And it's in!! The after-face...ahahahhah!! You're a sport girl..!!! *claps*

Then we played Win or Die Uno..and LekhaLekha simply has an extremely high perverted taste..she once again had to telan somethin yucky..this time it was one teaspoon Tomato Paste!! ahahaha...poor girl! And I had to lick the 'seafoods!'..eeuuww!

Yeah..if I dint put this up..sure kena from all of them. So, this is my evil crack twin lickin the seafoods. Yeah...it's actually a wind chime!! She does look very much like me, eh..but it aint me, it's my twin. Really.

Haih..slept at 6, evryone was too stuffed with food..and a bit too Brahma influenced!

Tonite there's gonna be another makan makan session..a Deepavali/Hari Raya potluck!

Oh yummy...!

And so,..Im so sentimentalish nuts, I cant bring myself to delete photos off my Friendster account! Aiyoh..damn susah la. I like them all, but I'd wanna delete some, so I can put new ones up. How la? ish..

Speakin of Friendster photos..I must have traumatised quite a few with my recent primary photo!! *grins* I told him I was gonna put up a semi-nude picture of him..he dengan berlagaknya said, 'put la, all the girls gonna go crazy over me..then u only susah!'...aft a while, he said, 'Ar, scared rite...tu la!!'..ish, prasannya!! Ahahhaahah..took it as a challange. So, yeah..he dared me, and there's a picture of Baby, half naked as my primary photo. All those who's interested (got ar? Sure takde..!!) send me a msg on Friendster. All those who'd like to practise their waxing/treading skills on Him also, can msg me!! *runs and hides from Baby!!* ahahahhah...but too bad la, the man's mine, and I aint sharing!

Im hooked on Green Jasmine Tea...yummy-nyer...!

I miss Adrian bringing me breakfast...the usual nasi lemaks, chee cheong funs and the loh ma kais..the bestest food in the world Just thought about it. More like I miss cuddling after having breakfast...

Back hurts la...and Ive got one super huge zit on my face!

Ahahhahaha..Im so tickled. Someone someone's a coward! Damn...so budak kecik-ish!! Ahaahahaha...dumb ass!!

Ok..Im happy. Very happy.

moo moo?

Speaking of which..

Posted by anandini at 02:10 AM on October 31, 2006.

I just ate some nasi goreng and a nice big glass of milk. Not your evryday meal...but it tasted yummy to me!

We're out of salt..so I used a whole lotta light soy sauce, belancan granules and chicken granules so substitute the sodium, and it worked! *claps*

Is it obvious that Im happy today...I guess so, as Dheepa caught me talking to my glass of milk.

Speakin of Dheepa...er, she had a weird encounter today. Ahahahahah..dats all I could say, or she'll kill me. But, let's all join hands, close our eyes, and unlock the chakras within...uhm nyam nyam nyam....uhm nyam nyam nyam...*ducks at incoming twack* Yes, Im so dead!

Dad's email was hilarious today. Loverbirds were fighting over directions, Mum misses a turning on a STRAIGHT road!! Aaahahahhah..then when they finally managed to find the Taman, Mum insisted on the some house being the wedding house, just becoz there were tents and wat nots. Turned out to be the wrong house,..and the wedding  house was instead a few roads behind!! Ahahahhaha..like a champion she went in the wrong house, good thing she dint start to wack the food!! Ahahahah..so funny!

Oncology teacher's single. LiYun said he doesnt wear a ring. But could that be becoz he's a surgeon? Oh, did I mention Oncology teacher's cute? Ok,..maybe not cute, but he's bald. Yeah..ok, I admit to havin a thing for bald men.

But I love my Baby nevertheless..!!

Speaking of my Pakwe...today he spent a whole evening chatting with me, straight after work!!! He's the bestest..!!

My GIT's been driving me cuckoo...spasms as though they're having a microflora wedding in there..E.Coli weds Kliebsiella. Ish...

Yeah and so....dumb ass is now known as ...er, dumbass still la. But on a higher degree.

Speaking of which...Ive been seeing a lot of dumb people lately. Like so stupid wei...saying silly things over stupid issues. Ish..ish, seriously la, there's more to evrything than just name and fame. It'll be a different thing if u're worth it..but if you're not, just like in this case,..perhaps ya'll should just twack your head(s), and not just the one above your neck..should twack your head(s) against the wall..and get one helluva cranial CTscan.

Ish..ok. Not gonna be pissy.

So,..Grey's Anatomy. Damn..haih..

Aahh...me dun care. Coz me have me very own McDreamy..his name is Adrian Elijah Manuel. *hugs* and me loves me McDreamy.

Oooh...speaking of which, Shafi's tryin to have her very own Doctor-Intern (in this case, 5th yr Med Student) fling with this someone-someone she met while eating plov (Ukrainian food thingy, similar to the Malaysian bryani!) at the Central Renak (market!). Being Shafi, that's pretty normal la...she hookin up with someone someone wherever, whenever. So, this someone-someone's apparently a 3rd year PG student in the Oncology Dept, where we, 501 are having our cycle now. And they keep bumpin into each other...I know for a fact LiYun's crossing her fingers real hard that this fling sparks love-flames arnd..so she can proudly say she has a friend, who's done the whole Grey's Anatomy thing. *rolls eyes* I'll sit and watch...ahahahahha.

Ok..gotta go finish my nasi goreng, and my milk.

Yes, Im so happy.

moo moo?

Boo...

Posted by anandini at 04:07 AM on November 1, 2006.

Its Halloween! WWhhoooo...I miss celebrating Halloween. Back those days, evry 31st Oct, we'll have a sleepover and do loads of silly things all nite. We were arnd 14-15yrs..so, yeah..it was simple, plain fun!

Anyway, big guy up there must have been tryin real hard to chase all those hantus back to hell..as the weather today was whacked cold!! 4degs..from wat I heard. Funny, how just a few days ago..weather was pretty cold, then it got to just 'cold', then it got pretty ok and nice..then suddenly, it went very very berry cold!!! 5 years, and we still aint used to this crappy weather cuckooness!

Im tired today.

And Ive got one aggressive wisdom tooth tryin to break thru my gums and show the world it's the champion!! Damn sakit..

Adrian was at Maju Curry House earlier. We used to chill there, after Waikiki's then drive down to A&W's and lepak there til sunrise..hhmmmm. Shitty to be so far away...

And so.

My back hurts like hell..must have tersalah tidur some day back, and it's so frickin sakit. Wish I had those strong hands to gimme a back rub..aaahh, Id do anything for one of those back rubs. *sigh*

Yeah..it shows eh. I miss him Evry single day, I miss him.

moo moo?