Flower Power..!!!

Posted by anandini at 04:37 AM on December 2, 2005.

Wheeee,...Flower Power!!!!!

Okie, a tad high on sugar!

*wonder if dats a good thing or a nasty meanie thing?*

Class today. Hhhmmm, class depresses me, so we shall not talk abt class, although despite some really crappy circumstances, it turned out fine somehow, flower power yet again!

Scrubs is juz so funny,...so so funny!

Tmrw's FRIDAY!!! WHHEEEEEEE,.......though the main agenda being, draggin myself by hook,crook or juz plain frook outa bed for SocialMed Lecture at evilish 810am,...then finalness of Stomat frm 12.30-4.00, or maybe earlier...then come back, and watch more n more n MORE Scrubs,..!!!!

Hhhmmmm...the weekend. Nice.

Actually at the moment I feel like dumpin a whole pail of rotten bitter gourd onto someone,..but I'd rather not dat spoil my sugar trill,...

Finished the yummy nuts Dheepa bought today....and she doesnt knw!![EDIT: She found out edi la....]

OOohh,...I made Vodka Chicky today,..actually, it was more of a Vodka-Gingerly kinda thing...I liked it though, though my mission to get Dheepa tipsy failed! Actually since I had RedWine in the fridge as well, that too kinda went in...

Dheepa's still mad at the whole fact dat there's power still,....hhmmm

Since we're talkin about Dheepa,..dumb girl slept a whole lot earlier in d evenin, so dat means Im gonna thru hell later, as she's not gonna lemme sleep....gone la!

Oh yeah,...He's psychic too...Juz like me! Flower power,..He lost playin BlackJack,...FlowerPOwer! AHaahahha,....*But he won em all back in the end la*

Oh,..and Dheepa wants to name her dog Granuloma..hhmmm...someone,..anyone,...please SAVE ME!!! I think if u look well enough, u'd be able to find the Asylum she broke free from...

Oooh...TheEx visited Him today, actually TheEx stopped by His aunt's place, but He wasnt there,..I think TheEX wanted a recipe to make Mutton Vareval! Ahahahhaha,...crap, dats so funny! And TheEx drives a Gold Waja now, from a Kancil to a Waja,..must be the Mutton bussiness! Ahahahahah,....hhmmm, ok, time for Anan to shuddup now...

I still wanna dump a whole pail on bitter gourd onto dat someone...I think BigGuy up there was sufferin from Acute Cholecystitis when he was bein made...so instead of brains, He substituted it for Grape Flavoured Gummy Worms!!!! Ish...

*woooozaaaaaaa....wwoooooozzzaaaaa.....*

Rite.

OC First Season. Yeah...SeTH Cohan...hhhmmm,.....California, here I come!!!!

moo moo?

Sometimes, all u wanna do is RANT

Posted by anandini at 06:03 AM on December 3, 2005.

Somehow, was convinced by some evil forces to screw my 8am SocialMed Lecture....hhmmmm. It was rainin la, it was juz so heavenly to juz stay in bed,..hhmmmm

Anyway, had a very disturbin start to my dad. To even think about it now, makes me juz wanna poison him wit Iprit, and open up his Thoracic Cavity and formalinize his organs for future medical breakthroughs. Hhhmmmm,..yet I believe in Karma, so wat goes arnd comes around la! And all those ultimately shallow, degrading, worm-like creatures, for them to even carry the title as humans is insultin by itself,..sorry to say, they deserve to be stir-fried and served to the elephants in circuses! They're juz bein an utter waste to worldwide oxygen consumption....

Yeah, ok. I get upset, I get really upset...but tis is beyond upset, it's DISGUST! Hhhmmm,.....why la? Ish...Karma ya'll, its gonna hit ya'll rite btw ur ductus deferens one fine day, and Im gonna smirk in glee...

Oh dat aside.

The end of Stomat. Next would be Therapy, the only real Medical Subject most 4thYear students are takin seriously, the dept itself is kinda stern, but from wat's been goin arnd, they arent really all dat bad...so yeah, Therapy here we come! Screw tis up, and I might juz stop considering myself worthy being a life-saver!

The line went dead, yet again..after He rushed, jushed and bushed...and the line had to go dead...ironicity at a very annoyin degree...Hhhmmm, felt very bad, in fact felt really horrible, coz He was really anticipatin it, not dat I wasnt..but then agian..hhmmmm, shit happens la...

SOmehow on the 24th of Dec, Id be on stage for some 45mins, carolling! Yeah....went for my first practise today! Kinda brought back a whole lotta memories, during my time wit the lovely inspiring SAGC gang...! Hhhmmmm,..miss ya'll guys, esp those few who made a difference in me somehow or rather...

Am very disturbed still,...hhmmmm

Mum's officially a SmartReader's Team member now! She graduated today,..so yeah, tis time when I return for summer, there might be a whole lot more of those lil beings runnin arnd wit some funny lookin chewd crayon or wat nots...hhmmmm! My Mummy, the foundation builder of lil young thingies, the leaders of tmrw....I wonder if dats a nice thing?! I think it is....

Im gonna sleep now. Tmrw's gonna be one long day. So,Im puttin it all inside my left pocket, and Im gonna sleep.

moo moo?

Wat next eh?

Posted by anandini at 06:30 AM on December 4, 2005.

Today has been fine.

Yeah, woke up at early, reworked my Toxicology Lecture witout much trouble, came back and went marketin and had lunch at McD's,..came home and startd bakin rite away,..and went for carollin practise at 3...was supposed to have gone for PT rework,..but....

Hell's broke loose.

Day was fine...until some 7pm-ish....

Alcohol is evil, I agree...

At least now I knw, one of two men I was tryin to convince was a total waste of mitochondrial activity...hhmmmm, wonder how the mid-age man did..

Of all things to say...hhmmmmmm Oh well, blame it on the alcohol...

I was bathin wit water so hot, dint even realise the water was that hot until I was almost done...a bottle of cold beer, to pleasantly hurt my already gravel-like throat, painfully pullin me away frm reality...

U wanna do all dat to prove a thing or two to me,..go ahead, shows how much I mean to you!

Oh crap,...

Been hurtin so much...Im numb.

Wat next eh? U wanna open me up and cross-stitch my aorta? Sure, why not....

Wat have I done....

Wat have you done...

Wat have they done....

Had dinner past midnite...

And went to bed, broken into a million pieces..

Yeah, the day was just fine.

moo moo?

I want, I need,...but....

Posted by anandini at 06:50 AM on December 5, 2005.

I woke up, and I thought I had died. I couldnt swallow, nor could I open my mouth. I felt like someone shoved a whole one basket of rambutans down my larynx...hhmmmm

Somehow glad Mum and Dad dint call me today,...can so imagine the triple dose of nags I'd get for fallin sick so often....yeah, being parents, its really cute how they still dispense health wise advises, to a 4th year MedStudent...I'll usually just listen, and smile at their cutesyness...

I found out something which kinda soothes the pain,..the lump in the throat feelin you have when u're about to cry,..yeah, dat takes d pain away, somehow~

The day was very dramatic. Hhhmmmm,...some things are juz unexplainable, nor is it justified easily. It just happens...U've gotta deal it wit somehow, regardless of the fact dat it hurts you or if it makes you rejoice in utter gayness...hhmmmm. If we were to go on analysing every 'wat if's'..nothin would work out, and we'd live regretin not taking dat chance we had....hhmmmm

Yeah. Im rambling..worse than a goat for that fact...not that a goat rambles...

But, fact is, Im pretty much disturbed still. And very saddened. Im tired as well,..yes, Im strong for you, but Im tired of having to keep doing this all d time,..I'd wanna be all dat I've said, just dun put me thru all the explaining and reassurin over and over again...you'd never understand...

Hhhmmmm,....

Ryan and Francis had us over for dinner.. Ryan made some really yummy Mutton Bryani! And, it was indeed long since I've been to their room, their even have new lights! It's been long,..way too long! Dinner was good,...so was the company and time. Missed all dat, should do it often...

Though Im still very much disturbed...

Oh well, Therapy starts tmrw...Dudar and Panevskaya. Hhhmmm,..the only thing Im lookin forward to is good 'Jarkoe' at the Cafe..Yummy!

Hhhmmmm,...

Crap. I hate being pissy,.....I hope I wake up to a good start tmrw, dats just all I need to lift my spirits up.

moo moo?

Dad. The world's greatest.

Posted by anandini at 06:32 AM on December 6, 2005.

Winter's finally here. Got out after Therapy today, and it was all misty ervywhere, like super jerebu-fied...was a typical scene off some horror flick, only thing was..there werent any vamps nor were there any one eyed freak wit fake blood drippin from his oral orifice. But it was ll misty, and helluva freakin cold. Hhhmmm...Yeah, winter's here.

Firts day of Therapy today, and yeah..as we've all anticipated, Panevskaya's who we've got! She aint all dat bad, in fact, she's kinda ok...class was quite interestin, apart from a someone wantin to be just about evryone! And for the first time ever, after a very long time, I came back all excited coz there's finally something real to study!! Whooaaa..hhmmm, waiddaminit, I think for dat itself to be a measured as excitement, should indeed worry me, I mean like...who gets excited to study? Hhmmmm,...oh well~ Geek I shall be....But, definitely lookin forward to Therapy, somehow I think it's gonna be juz alrite...nice~

Mid aged man did well, he took my word for it,..I somehow knew he would, coz he just loves me too much to disappoint me! A whole lotta reverse psychology and convincing over the weekend reaped me some degree of satiable satisfaction somehow! Yeah,..the numeroUno man in my life, my Dad. Hhhmmm,....

Speakin of Dad...he definitely cant be stoned on some shrooms, so Im guessin he was just high on some MeeHoonGoreng....yeah, he was all weirdyfied today,...He SMSed me at 630am-ish, my time,...'Hoi Girl, wake up la, go to school (???)..wake up ok! Bye, love you!' Rite....Yeah, I knw dat he's balding and all,...but a certain degree of cuckooness...hhmmm, the thruth is out there ya'll *inserts X-Files OST* You see, Dad and I email each other evryday, so he hardly SMSes me,..if at all he does, it'll be somethin urgent and needs immediate attention!Hhhhmmm,... But then again, he could be tryin to contact his other daughter, if he has any? Of which I highly doubt...coz HE'S MY DADDY!! Hhhmmm,..ok, ok, imaginations goin way across The Black Sea and forth..hhmmm, ish watever....

You knw how it is when you somehow knw something's wrong,..or perhaps you're just deliberately assumin something's wrong,..you dunno wat it is, nor do you how to get it all-a-ok,..hhhmmmm, and somehow knowin dat there's something wrong, and all u can do is juz wonder,..dat icky feelin is indeed disturbing, in fact its depressing! Hhhmmmm,....you dunno if its juz pretendness,..or it could have been genuinely purely true,..Ish, dunno la,....

I've been rantin and rambling a whole lot lately eh....hhmmmm

Need some fresh Strawberries....nice sweet ones. Not gonna get em anytime soon though...

Im downloadin Alicia Key's recent concert in London,..it better be good!

moo moo?

Dheepa's an ALIEN

Posted by anandini at 06:03 AM on December 7, 2005.

Today, it felt like I've got my soul back,..yeah, it went on a lil Va-kay..

Screwd Therapy Lecture this mornin *bangs head on the wall* I hope I dun die next summer wit Therapy Finals...Hhhmmmm. Woke up and got ready for Endo Lect, was wearin socksies..when I heard the very familiar *tocktocktock* on Yahoo!Msger...yeah, screw Endo Lecture as well...

Met up wit the 410ers at 11.10 for the 12.30 class...wat do we do when we have abundant time, we have lunch at Bokdan! Ok,..ok, tis doesnt happen often! At Bokdan, hungry as hell, fussed over the menu, orderd, then freaked out as it was only then, did our intellects started worryin abt time factor..!! Well, we werent late for class...so I guess, worryin, and chompin down food at the speed of TelukKemang waves werent all that worthwhile....hhmmmm, at least it kept some one quiet!

Class today. Hhhmmmmm..it always happens, someone's always being evryone, gets really annoyin, but dats the way it sickeningly works. Met my patient,..and for the first time this sem, the curse of horrible meanie patients have been lifted off me....yeah, this time arnd, she was nice, and lovely...too bad she was being discharged, so we had very lil time for anamnesis and examinations, but we somehow managed! And for the first time ever, I heard systolic murmurs dat loud! Whoaa...super dahsyat!

Dheepa thinks she's on of those Banana in Pyjamas flers,..the ones which kept bouncin off one another...aahahhahaha! Oooh, she's also an alien from outa space, and Im tryin to show evryone dat her hair and her nose is fake, she's just tryin to blend in..hhmmm, she's doin a very good job and makin them look real real.

Ive gotta worm in my PC.

Oh yeah...Nicol David's a World Champ, and is now ranked World NumeroUno! Quite cool, I think...but is a very depressin note upon me, as she's my age,..look at her, she's rite up there, and me...hhmmm, still drownin amongst my thicky dusty books! Crap....yeah, yeah somehow happy for her, I guess....

Today, on the way back, in the bus,..was tis really stinky fler who kept fallin on me,...well, at least almost~ And I was standin! He could have conveniently fell along the felli sittin next to him..hhhmmm. Yeah, and the bus was filled wit drunkies..dahsyat ride back today!

I think Im happy. I hope I stay happy. Just a lil while, before some tragic robs it away again

moo moo?

Harry's the MAN!

Posted by anandini at 04:48 AM on December 8, 2005.

I slept and slept and slept and slept and SLEPT! My alarm was re-set at 9am, then 10am,...and then at 11am. I finally woke up at 1120, witout the slightest tinge of guilt,..coz there werent any Lectures today!

Aaahh..nice. Most time tables should be as such, which allows me to sleep till a lil til noon.

Class today was draggy. Panevskaya thinks we're from outa space, she doesnt realise she looks like a cross btw a walrus and a bulldog. Hhhmmm,....

The wife of Harry aka Dinesh Mahalingam is gonna be one blessed soul. I came bck, and was chattin til some 8pm, and Dheepa Buntut was sleepin til then as well...woke her up, and both of us were too lazy too cook, and we somehow decided 'not' to be hungry so we dint have to bother lookin for dinner...and at that very moment,...and Amanda Perez singing 'God sent an angel from the heaven's above....' ahahahahha, yeah ok, a bit on the emo-ness,..yeah, anyway, Harry come knockin on the door, with two plates of fried rice and yummy fried cauliflower,..Dheepa had Curry Chicken, from last nite as well! What would we do, if we dint have Harry....Yeah, he's the greatest, we love Harry..*Barney's 'I love you, you love me,..lalalala,..Mode on* Ahahahah,.....rite! But seriously, he's the great...and truly, his Wife, the one who swept him off his feet, one blessed lady!

And I dun like Dheepa today.

He's gonna have diplomatic talks with the neighbouring countries,..He needs a brown box and some Brown paper...ahahahha, so funny! And Im also his neighbour's daughter...!! Ahahahaha...the things he comes up with...

Oooh, and there's a big pot of Barley in the fridge. To think dat I love Barley so yummyly now....coz back home, Mum would have to literally pour it down my throat using a funnel!

I need to go proove Panevskaya wrong now.

moo moo?

deMussets...

Posted by anandini at 06:16 AM on December 9, 2005.

I just wrote my daily email to my Dad onto my Tabulas template. And dumb Tabulas, dunno why cannot CutCopyPaste..hhmmmmm

Been at war for the past 40over mins,...Yahoo!Messenger Audibles war against stoopid Menaka! I had to err, empty my bowels..and it ended there! Hhhmmm,...dumb girl!

Today in Therapy, among others, we learnt dat the deMusset's sign originated from an Alfred de Musset, a French poet from some ancient days who exhibited the deMusset sign due to an infection of Syphillitic Endocarditis, which caused Aortic Insufficiency! Hhhmmmm....wonder if all of em would somehow have the karma of gettin syphillis....Rite, Im evil, get used to it.

I hate Dheepa today, she's been laughin at my hair.

Met Irina Borisovna today,...for a ViceDean she's always full of surprises,..she humours me to nuts! The lady's juz too cute la,..ahahahah...she got all excited over sushi! And some other thing, which should not be mentioned...ahahhahaha

Im going to sleep now. Its such a sleepy weather...nice.

moo moo?

Its posted up in bright pink.

Posted by anandini at 08:21 PM on December 11, 2005.

Short hiatus it has been, yeah it has been kinda hectic...in a funny way~

Yesterday was filled with so much drama. Come to think of it, it's becomin a weekly event now,...Woke up early, get to the market, come back and bake...only difference yday I had to rework my missed PT classes, at 5pm, when it's already so dark and cold! Kinda over-semangat-ed myself,...consequences=horrible myalgia now! Oh well, I had my dose of 3-time-a-week-exercise,20-mins-each, just dat it was all at one shot! Evryone ws kinda pissy yesterday, all in their own worlds...hhmmm, I was d one hyper nut, tryin to get them to appreciate the world and global warmin, it kinda worked....til my own sporadic episodes of pissyness hit me....hhmmmm

I fell once, I told myself dat it aint gonna happen ever again,...but it happend. Somehow I convinced myself, its gonna be different, well it is...yet, not everything though, the pain is still so sickeningly raw and agonising. But then again, I guess somethings are juz meant to be...so be it...Ive gotta stop bein so paranoid, not ervyone dies like dat, not evryone gets typhus fever, and not everyone screws things up. Rite, dats on a bright pink stick-it-on mental note.

I wish I was home,...just a call from them would do so much now. [Edit: juz got an SMS, they'll be callin me in 2hours!!!]

Gotta complete my case report...to be presented tmrw. That'll probably take my mind of certain things.

moo moo?

No water aint good

Posted by anandini at 05:53 AM on December 13, 2005.

Today.

I found a very old fren, on Friendster. Fossil-aged, ice man era old! I nearly died of terkejutness....Gosh~....Double K, crap...of all peepz! Hhhmmm,...Im sensing a very interestin meet up this summer...

I forgot my labcoat. *bangs head on wall* If class was arnd campus, it wouldnt have been a major hoo-hah...but class was at The Semashko Hospital. Panicked, danced a lil, swore a lil....Called Harry, who was still at the hostel, told him to get me a labcoat somehow,..he then realised he only had the key to my main door, and not the door after dat. Wat he does? He goes to my neighbour and pinjams her labcoat for me...problem solved, you'd think? Hhmmm...you see, my neighbour would win a who's skinnier contest againt a bamboo shoot and an eyeliner pencil. Hhhmmm,..need I say more? Well, I survived being sausaged thru out the day nevertheless..and no one glared, so I guess it was ok.

I dint shower today. Am not proud of dat,...well, at least Im finally listenin to my Mum's advice of not showerin evryday durin winter for I carry the RA genes in my blood as well....Yeah, the taps were dry today. They decided to have some fun by turnin off the water supplies to all hostels! About 1140pm or so, we had just enough water flowin to juz wash up, from the cold water tap! IceCold water....its like a thrill u knw, like havin injected 10%-1ml Lidocainum into all regions of your musculus facialis. Hhhmmmm,...

To think that Ive got about 25days til my winter sem Exams...Panic-Factoro, where art thou? Need.To.Start.STUDYING.

Im cravin for some Baby's food now...Rusk Cookies, dunked in milk. Yummy.

Oh, there's a BabyHantu disturbin Him. Hehehehe...coz He dint wash his feet!

Im gonna sleep.

moo moo?

Black gloomy cloud

Posted by anandini at 04:36 AM on December 14, 2005.

Today's been kinda shitty,..for certain reasons of which Id rather not reveal,..

Hhhmmm...

Dheepa took 2hours to shower today, coz she dint shower yesterday!

Found out some really interestin facts about one 'Cauliflower' member..somehow, not surprised la..

N you,..hhmmm, never mind..gloat all you may in your fake flourescent glare,...for it's so nauseatin for the rest of us.

Dad. Wish the time would come soon,..for me to lift the burden off him. We were talkin about my brother, somehow the fact of him being in his final year of high school next year sorta freaks us out..hhmmm.

Improved recipe=cripsy fried cauliflowers,..the real edible ones.

Loads to do tonite. But rather keep it for tmrw.

I miss Anne.

moo moo?

Posted by anandini at 02:55 AM on December 15, 2005.

Tired. How can a 5 letter word fit how Im feeling now,..they shud come up wit a more ooppmmh word for 'tired. Coz Im just so tired...

Marina Mahathir has stepped down as Malaysian AIDS Council's President, as well as Malaysian AIDS Foundation Chairman. Somehow, I was very moved by the news, coz,..personally, she's indeed made a difference, araising awareness and all amongst Malaysians. Sometimes rebellious and downright defiant, she has attracted her fair dose of brickbats of some sort. Yet, despite all dat has happend, it's indeed sad to note, that the majority of Malaysians, with their mata kucing-ish mentality, have cognitive functions as civilised as those of blue algae. The discrimination against HIV+ Patients are still very much evident, and the whole mind set about AIDS alone is utterly reprehensible. Makes me just wanna hit certain idiots wit  a banana peel,...hhmmmm

Oh well..

Im tryin so hard...not listenin, igonring, not talkin. But Im slowly loosing my treshold of patience, as it's gettin too bloody infuriating! Hhhmmm,..When you're not spoken to, DO NOT speak...Its just dat simple, why dont you goddamn get it?

Wooozzaaaaaaaa.....

Havent spoken to him in days,...ok, actually just 2. Miss him so much..

Dat aside..

Gonna sleep.

moo moo?

Down History!

Posted by anandini at 06:27 AM on December 16, 2005.

The light bulb in the toilet blew again, but no worries,...my glow in d dark tee-shirt saved the day! It was generating enough brightness, it was such a 'Wow,....Wah,.....Fuyoooo..' factor! Dahsyat,..never knew my tee shirt has so much potential!

Today, Panevskaya chased us back at 3pm! Dat deserves to go down HISTORY, or in this case, HERSTORY!

Of my current irritable annoyance, today it was admitted dat mistakes are inevitable,..comin from the source, I wasnt sure I was hearing rite...But, I did, I did hear it rite! Wow,....down history as well!

I think Ive got a sudden condition of Radial Entrapment...hhmmmm, hope it moves bck into position soon

Spoke to Him today,..glad it made a difference!

Oh yah,....Dad's been hintin on my Birthday gift. Hehehehe,...in small, italic prints in his daily email, he asked wat I'd like! Me luvs me Daddy!

I'd like for HIM to be shot. The one who gave me so much trauma since 4 months ago,..bright daylight robbery! Yeah, shot!

And world peace!

Had fun invadin the inner most, juiciest crushes of many today! Heheehehe,.....Fun, wit a much anticipated dose of shockerbabuness..!

Try this. Really. Its so accurate.

Tmrw's Friday,...Something LiYun, Shafi and Dheepa have been waitin for...yeah, there'll be a Pyjama Party at LiYun's apartment tmrw nite! Wit Pizza, booze and girl talk...high doses of estrogens, fatality is indeed elevated! Teeheheheh.....

moo moo?

Mo0M0o's ONE!

Posted by anandini at 07:56 PM on December 18, 2005.

Unbelievable.

It has been one year! Yeah, M0oMo0's a year old today!

To think dat I hardly ever kept a diary before,...Ive blogged for a year now,... religously!

My canvas, where I rule. I bitch when Im star-studded bitchy, I rant when things get really pissy, I rage a fiery outburst when matters get out of hand, I speak my unspoken mind, I whine and whine and whine when I feel like being a kid, I love the unloved....hhmmm, the list goes on. Ive come to realise, dat this is my one space Id turn to...when no one else Id rather confide upon.

Wow...one year!

Last Friday,....4 of us darlings, a whole lotta food, Honey Vodka, a very elevated dose of cuckoness,....and 7walls! One nite, which will always haunt me be rememberd! We gossiped, we kutuked, we giggled which turned into gonna-die-already-laughter-fits!, we ate a whole lot, we made yummy pizzas, we tried not to sleep *which dint work!*, and we dug out dirt from the deepest well of crap! All in all, it was a great Pyjama Party,...good for the soul, considerin how we're gonna die surviving winter finals, in abt 3weeks from now!

Nice.

Harry barged into the room, hands wavin in the air,...happily announcing dat he'll be throwin a party! Dheepa and I, gave him one helluva cock stare.....like which part of *KILLER-EXAM-SO-CLOSE-N-WE'RE-SO-DOOMED* dint he get? But he was so adamant on it, he's callin it The Pre-Exam, Early Christmas, Way Early New Year Do...all in one! Yeah,..so we gave up! Its Harry,...no point arguing.

Been pigging out on yummy orange cake,..wit heavenly cream cheese toppin! Aaahh, nice

Mom n Dad dint call me this weekend,...wonder wat they're up to. Hope they're being good. *deleting mental evil thoughts*

Dat aside...

At times like this, I kept tellin myself to juz kick paranoia in the ass, and juz chill,....but then again, when u're juz too deep, too much infatuated, a mere task like dat becomes utterly impossible. Doubtful and cynical, yet a lil string of faith keeps me goin still...hhmmmm. Sick of it, so Im tryin, tryin so hard....not to think!

Oh well....

One Year old it is. The place where my alter egos and my multiple mood swings come to life!

Something random,....I lifted up the cup off the saucer,...and ta-da, a perfect heart shaped bubble...been wantin to show this for a very long time, but never got around it! Cool, eh!

moo moo?

Posted by anandini at 06:51 AM on December 20, 2005.

The temperature today was -3degs. Wat happens when it gets below zero? IT FREAKIN SNOWS!!!!

Crap~!

Woke up, looked out the window..and just stared out. White evrywhere...just the thought of sludgish melting snow everywhere, and the banjir-ness it causes,..and us having to walk thru all that to get to class..hhhmmmmm, such a motivatin factor....

Well, despite it all, the first snowfall of the year was welcomed in its own pissy way....

The time of the year for PT exam yet again,..yeah in tis part of freako-doodle world, we have exams for PT! 40 sit-ups, 15 push-ups, 12 min jogging which came up to some 1.35km...and a whole lotta other crappies! Im expecting severe athralgia tmrw,....hhmmmm. Joy!

Juz completed Panevskaya's report...the one nice sweet darling who reads thru ervy detail of ur 18+ page case report, corrects your spellin errors, and remembers evry single crap from the anamnesis to the bloody Doppler thingies! Hhmmmm.....Therapy End Cycle exam tmrw! Hope all goes well...

Hate being so....depended upon. Its so utterly shitty....like hellow! WTF?

He's up to something....dunno wat, but something. Am too occupied to think about it, or so I think.....so be it.

moo moo?

Screwd up, to an ultimate high!

Posted by anandini at 06:52 AM on December 21, 2005.

The day when all your bad karma showers upon u, all at once,...and the only consolation being, bad karma quota for the near future has almost been kering-fied.....so, tis may be as bad as it gets! Or so I hope! Well, dats at least wat my Mum used to tell me always...

First, all printers and cyber cafe declared a 'go-against-Anan Day' today...all em failed on me today! Harry's and Rajiev's printer ran dry WHILE I was trying to print my 18 page case report....then all the CCs I tried, was somehow celebratin 'Cacatfying Printer Day'...and the one CC I had my hopes up, didnt have a USB port for my thumb drive! Well, thanx to LiYun, who was a real life saver....I managed to somehow get it all printed out, all 18 pages of it!

Then, end cycle Case Report Defending,.....haih, wat can I say la? Shit happens eh,....so disappointed I was, utterly shaken it felt...hhmmmm, system of examination's shitty! By the time, it reaches towards the last few flers in the class, evryone would have somehow learnt how the scheme goes,...so who suffers? Sesame Street has been proudly brought to you by the alphabet 'A'....hhmmmm, think my parents watched a bit too much of those!

Thought Ive seen it all,..nah. Realised I paid Dheepa's fees instead of mine! Coz the idiotfied dumb ass I am, I gave the lady behind the counter Dheepa's slip, instead of mine! With an amount dat big, how come she dint double check the names? For a mere 14.50grvs for a rework she does! Ish....Have to undo dat somehow!

Came back, after constricting my spinchter long enough, ran into the toilet, and......no hot water! Plus, the lights bulbs of the toilet AND the bathroom blew!

Hhhmmm......

One shitty, full of crap day it has been!

Then, He came along and swept my sorrows away....wish I had he-pills for me to consume on a daily dosage to keep me from constantly poundin my head against the wall, in utter angst!

Oh well....day's over.

New cycle tomorrow...Derma! Heard its really yuck, yet to see though..

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Derma's yucky.

Posted by anandini at 05:07 AM on December 22, 2005.

1st day of Derma...for the first time ever, Im afraid to even touch my patient, a 53 yr old decent lookin chap, for he's sufferin from exudative psoriasis. Yeah, Dermatologist is one thing Im definitely not becoming. Deontological and proffesionalism aside, derma cases tickles my 'eeewwww' receptors, and may induce hyperreactive gag reflexes...hhhmm. How not to cringe?

Tried something funny for dinner..became a typical Russian, and ate a whole lotta potatoes. Carbs,....= to unutilise excessive glucose,..= to gundu-ness! I guess a once in a time potato load is ok,..*crosses finegrs*

Clearin credits,..yeah dat time of the goddamn semester, yet again. Its good somehow, coz Panic-factor is slowly takin effect....17days to winter finals. Its soon gonna become a one digit number, and Im gonna hyperventilate on a daily basis....

He's cut his hair! Ahahahah.....cant wait to look at how school-boyish he looks! Hope all goes well for him tomorrow!

Mum SMS-es at the speed of light.....in a 10mile block of lead. So cute...Dad's callin her 'PQRS',...! For reasons Im still tryin to figure out!

Did a 40-at-one go dose of sit-ups today..for a tofu like me, dats gonna kill my rectus abd tmrw....hope d pain would take my mind of certain things, and keep me from being pissy~....

moo moo?

YOU SUX!

Posted by anandini at 11:54 PM on December 22, 2005.

**dated 22nd December, Ive decided to sticky-fy this entry a while,...coz I want ppl to knw, wat certain people may become,....sad, but true!**

Why do people with double personalities exist? They're always pretendin to be someone they're not, just to fit in,...wonder if they realise how evryone else sees rite thru them, and beside laughin at how silly they appear to be, we also shake our heads in utter pity.....Ive always knew these ding dongs were abundant, but never had I expect one of my closest fren to be one. One who I grew fond of, who appeard trustworthy enuff for I confided many of my slimy dark dirt wit....I've heard much crap of her prior to this, but Im not one of those who'd judge a person from wat other equally idiotic ding dongs have to say,..so, I thought Id get to know her myself, n so I did..but it wasnt til today, I have known d real her! Things are never gonna be d same,....for Ive lost my trust in u, and I regard u even crappier than an AIDS infected, syphillitic whore.

Oh well....dun hate me if u notice Im avoidin you. You left me without much of a choice...gonna be kinda shitty Id say, as I'll be seein u a whole lot arnd...hhmmmm

I hear a loud ^I-TOLD-YOU-SO!^ from Dheepa!

Dat apart....

It was blizzarding this mornin,..crappy crappy crappy! Yuckyness way high...any other day, I would have screwd lecs, and went bck to sleep....but it was OnG lec today, one of the shittiest lectures to miss, for reworkin them would be task, thougher than removin stitches on a very hairy person! Hhmmm.....

Chasing arnd gettin my credits....wish the weather would have a lil mercy and be a lil nicer tmrw!

moo moo?

Funny....Lackin Doctors? Try the local BATA!

Posted by anandini at 04:02 AM on December 24, 2005.

I kissed a snow man today...a huge life size fler, wit a carrot for a nose!

The only way out of this rut is to buy 10 coconuts and smashed them onto the floor,...or to mandi bunga, wit 27 different kinds of flowers and sweet smelling thingies...I need to cleanse myself, for I believe Ive too much bad aura envelopin me now!

Today has been such a crappy day, ...heck, the whole semester has been one crappy, shitty semester! As Rajiev said, I must have used up all my charm and luck durin last year's summer finals, of which I did very well in. Crap!

Not gonna detail-fy my crappy day, for when times like this, Id hear my mum sayin, look at all the pretty things happenin instead.....although it hardly works at times, but yet it still does have its very own peculiar therapeutic effect....

Its so hard to walk arnd,....Kinda lost count on how many times I nearly fell today! The grounds freakin ICY! Literally, ICY! While walkin back from class today, I tried standin still and lettin Eve drag me, as I glide...ahahah, dint work though...I guess now I know my winter boots serves me well! Crap....chances of bright sun shinny sunshin meltin all the snow and ice away tomorrow,...hhmmm, almost below negative!

It hurts most when u're ultimately dependent, and needed,....yet, insatiable. Just hope all's ok...hhmmmm. At a point where Id rather not hear anymore, refuse to feel d least and stubborn upon hurtin still...

On a different note....

This is just freakin out of the world! And the *lovely* government decides to derecognise foreign Medical Unis just becoz there's too little of their people, and too many of their non-people?? Im not racist, please dun get me wrong,....but Ive had my fair share of bucket load of crap from the above mentioned *lovely* government! Sad to say, Malaysia would continue to suffer from a lack of professional medical staffs, for no one would wanna serve the government after all they've done to us! So, all's left are the ^geniuses^ from Local Unis, who still get confused over pleural effusion and transudate,...and who blinks into space when asked to define an abcess! Not all, I knw,..but most, Id say,.from personal experience while doin my practs evry summer in Klang GH! Sad? More like scary!

Oh well,...somethings wuld just never change, regardless of wat the Rain God has to say.....

moo moo?

I have realised...

Posted by anandini at 04:46 PM on December 24, 2005.

I realised my past few previous entries were nothin but me rantin on and on and on about how shitty things have been lately,....

Well, it has indeed been shitty.

But, this mornin I woke up, and I have decided to screw it all and not to let it bother me anymore....

Everythin's a phase, my Mum used to say...all this lil brickbats of bad karma is just so your future would lack of them, and would be all nice and happy....

Im gonna work on gettin things done,...rectifying the undones,...and to start revising for my upcomin winter finals.

Am not gonna let anyone or anything screw things up for me,....its my life, thus its my call!

I have cried enough,....I have had a tad too many breakdowns....done and over with!

Enough of a continuous dose of bad karma,....I am now anticipatin nothin, but goodness....

Glad Ive got a great best fren, who's also my roomie to hit me into sense once in a while,...not forgetin my other minions darlings who have been there for me numerous times! You're indeed God sent!

Plus, its a lovely mornin...its Christmas Eve....

And, the sorta found a BigFoot in Johor, Malaysia. Im not kidding....kinda cool, come to think of it, could domesticate d fler, and have it as a cute mascot for the King Kong movie, my Mum so hyper about!
Merry Christmas.

moo moo?

Christmas it was...HoHoHo!!!

Posted by anandini at 06:04 AM on December 26, 2005.

Wah,...Christmas!! So the Merry!!!

Went to Dom Kultura on Saturday for the Christmas celebrations....The carollers were so cute! Tehehehe,...I was supposed to up there as well!!! But they were so cute,....and they did well!! *clap clap* For once, a celebration which coincided with the whole thing idea of festiveness,....not of some show were ding dongs jumps across d stage to some stupid song, or some silly other song singing thingy.....haih

After dat, we and Ruben Clause went to the park to play with snow and to snap some snowy pictures! Be it 1st year, 2nd year, 3rd year,...and now 4th year, snowy pictures are a must! And tis time, we had Ruben Clause!

Then, we went out to Paparazzi for dinner! Superb interior....but ouchypricey food!! And after waitin for so long for the food, when it finally came, it was a let down! But I wouldnt mind goin bck for some cocktails,...as they've got such a vast selection, and the waiters are kinda cute and nice,...and most of all, the place is lovely! They got nice huge sofa-ish stools in the shape of stilletos! Nice....

Today, woke up arnd noon,...made some yummy coffee pancakes, of which Dheepa and I ate wit choc-chip ice cream! Gettin fatter during festiveness is somehow justified, I guess~ Then somehow, before I knew it,...there was to be a Christmas Potluck in my room! Ta-daaa, juz like dat! Dheepa and I made Egg-Potato Fritata wit a whole lotta cheese! Yummy....for the first time ever, we had to of the same dish....baked chicken!! Would have had 3, if Ruben had decided to do it as well! Eve and Ruben made the cekapest egg sambal, and pineapple-ish lemon chicken! Ruben made 'granny' rice....Harry and Francis made one helluva baked chicky...for them to start of without any ingredients for a regular tradisional baked chicky, they came up wit a pretty good do, merely by seasonin they found arnd the kitchen! Nice....as usual, when d bunch gathers,...good food, good company, all's good!

Well,..that was Christmas.

Wish evrythin was as happy as all of these.....feelin helpless, feelin negleted, feelin secondary...selfish it may seem, but vulnerable I am. Oh well,...hhmmm

Winter finals, exactly 2 weeks from today. Panic factor slowly takin effect....which is a good sign.

Need to get to my stack of Neuro books....the only thing which keeps my mind off many things....only when Im about to sleep, I start to think of many things, and lacrimation becomes a normal routine....esp for the past few nites....

Oh well...

Merry Christmas Ya'll!

moo moo?

Feelin loved and blessed....

Posted by anandini at 03:05 AM on December 27, 2005.

Freakin weather.....the roads were covered with at least a 3inch layer of ice today! No snow, just freakin skate-able ICE!!! If u stood still, u'd find urself gliding towards gravity..Im serious! The fall-o-meter recorded a new high today! Almost evryone I met was either rubbin their bums or some parts of their body, from their fall! I survived, though there were a few close calls!

So funny!!!

Haih...no matter how immaculate u believe ur backup plan is, something always screws it up! Thought Id finally pay my 2nd sem fees....but the ATM were all bonkerfied today! My dateline being tmrw, all I could think of was the utter horror of me being expelled! Well, it was close.....

And then,...look, a bird, a plane, a layang-layang......no, they're Anan's superheroes!!! Yeah, LiYun and Harry pinjam-ing me a whole lotta money, Rajiev teman-ed me all arnd lookin for a freakin sane ATM...the rest came up wit ideas of taking over d world a scheme to pay up my fees, and saved me from expelled! Sakun was so sweet, she offered a loan of 4ooUSD....haih, wat would I ever do witout these darlings! Me loves ya'll loads and loads.....

Came back,..felt so down, worried sick, freaked out....cried a lil...I knew there was a solution, as there always is. Just sick of having to go thru so much, all at once....over and over again, it repeats! You tell urself all's gonna be ok, and the cycle starts again! Haih....

My aunt came online.....the one cool person, who juz made my day! She's goin thru a lot as well, but she somehow lifted my spirits up!

Another things which made my day was when I saw her picture down from the board in the Dean's Office!! Wah....! My aunts and I thought she must have slept wit one of those proffs in an attempt of suckin up, and got caught! Ahahahah...it was so funny!!!

I feel so loved today....from all my darlings arnd me, I call friends. Blessed I am to have ya'll....~

Oh well.....things with him are still like dat,...like dat? Like dat la....hhmmmm...

Gonna complete Neuro, coz believe it or not,....Lindsay, Kumar and Clark, Harrisons and all the others, they keep my mind off many things!

Hope the ice melts of, and we'll somehow survive CSMU on Ice tmrw!

moo moo?

Dheepa's 21!!

Posted by anandini at 06:28 AM on December 28, 2005.

Therapy done and over wit....feels good, feels really good!

6 down, 7 to go...whooaaa. Credits, Im talkin abt credits!

Things are all sparkly and bubbly and blossomy yet again....see Jah, it's all u, when things are sour, Im entirely sour. But despite evry other crap, if things are magical between us, all's fine! Haih....*floats on cloud 9.85 and flaps wings!*

Ive clean shaped eyebrows now....major ouch factor. Haih...vanity, the sakitness. haih.....

Oh,...Dheepa's 21 edi!!! Finally, came 12 am,....msges, calls, door barging darlings, all to wish the lil kid who juz turned 21!! And she got this ever so lovely, pretty, most wonderfullest key pendant from her parents!! Wah...so nice!!! I want also!!!! She's so happy, she's pacing up and down....too ecstatic!

So much happiness tmrw....anticipating a nice, bubbly day tmrw!!

moo moo?

Happy 21st Birthday, buntut!

Posted by anandini at 06:49 AM on December 29, 2005.

Today I cabuted from class at 2, which was supposed to end at 4.30....coz Shafi had to er,...answer nature's call, a very great call! ahahaha,..so, instead of sittin arnd in dumb derma class, I teman-ed Shafi home.....more like speed walked back!

Came back and sprung into action...getting things done for Dheepa's surprise 21st Birthday Party..whenever I cud escape from her, I ran arnd...I pretended to sleep, so dat she's sleep too, so I cud get things done!

But having such wonderful darlings,....as always, things get done, even witout being askd! Harry, Francis, Eve, Ruben, Rajiev, Shafi, Thika, Lekha, Kanch, Sybil, Gayatry, Prema, Shanu, Aznita, Shamala, Thilak and everyone else, thanx a whole lot, wouldnt have been a blast witout u guys!

Dheepa had a walk in surprise do,....she walked into a dark room filled wit ppl, merely lited by 21candles on her cake! And was surprised...ahahah! Then we had a potluck thingy, among close frens,...potluck being potluck, there were a whole lotta food, more like a whole lotta different food! Just glad there werent 2 roasted chickies tis time! Tehehehe.....

Dheepa was really happy wit her virtual card....recorded greetings of frens, to last a life time, to show her grandkids, and her numerous husbands!

Then....the champagne openin,...how more to welcome 21 years of dunguness! Ahahaha,..but the hoohaa gettin Dheepa to open d bottle!! Aduh...cannot come la, need to push harder la, had to shake it la...damn, sounded like a whole different thing! Oh well,...it was juz champagne, really!

Well, my dearest roomie, my bestest fren, the one who has been there for me, the one who gets me up when Im shitty, who laughs wit me even at nothin at all...who shares my vodka and gossips about Mr so and so and this and dat...and evrything else,...glad God brought us together, glad we have survived each other for 4years, and hopefully for many more years to come....Happy 21st Birthday, Ive always got ur back, juz as uve got mine! Love ya loads, buntut! Hope Uve had a lovely and memorable day!

moo moo?

Tired

Posted by anandini at 07:07 AM on December 30, 2005.

Tired.

Finally, there's no need to drag heavy winter boots anrd....the weather today was so autumn/spring-ish....hope it stays dat way!

Case reports. Lecture reworks. Neuro. haih....so tired.

Egg yolk is white? or egg yolk are white? which? Dad wanted to knw...fell for it! Damn....now he's kutukin me,...name sake only medStudent, but dumb! Darn!

Oh well....

If my left hand becomes paralytic, its all becoz of Dheepa....she twacked me real hard, and she migth have ruptured a vein, or demylinated a nerve or somethin...damn fart!

Haih....so tired. Need holiday...holiday still 3weeks away.

moo moo?

word salad!~

Posted by anandini at 06:38 AM on December 31, 2005.

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Currently feeling: nauseated

moo moo?

Done and over wit

Posted by anandini at 06:53 AM on December 31, 2005.

A miracle. I woke up for my 8am lecture! Eve called my phone 3times, juz to see if my phone was switched off, coz usually, if I decide to ponteng, I'd turn my phone off.....She was so disappointed!

The weather was superb today,.....not cold, not hot, just nice. Derma end cycle today...got lucky! Which literally meant Im done wit 7th sem! Now just have to clear sem finals, and 8th sem, here I come....haih, 4 more sems to go!

The weather was so nice, we were so hyperfied....actually just me, but somehow managed to infect Eve, and pumpkin girl!

Came back, and slept off watchin The Exorcism of Emily Rose,..The movie was good, but due to lack of sleep and super tiredness, I just dozed off.....

Went to 777 for dinner,...had yummy chole bathuri and Brahma....777 was so packed, evryone was already half gone, celebratin the New Year....haih.

Feel very disturbed...hhmmmm. Just wish things done have to be like tis. Oh well.....

moo moo?

It wasnt me.

Posted by anandini at 08:58 PM on December 31, 2005.

The word salad below was brought to u by Dheepa, and her utterly mentally challenged self....haih.

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