I wanna go back home :(

Posted by anandini at 08:10 PM on January 25, 2010.

Im so full with dinner, I think I can bounce around and roll my way back to bed :D

Today during surgery, open vesiculolithotomy to be exact. I held two artery forceps with only my left hand, and the younker on my right and my surgeon asked if I had any intensions on being a surgeon myself?! I dun see what the big deal was, he said not many can multitask as such. And when I told him, yes.. I'd like to be a surgeon, but in ObGyn he threw a whole anti va-jay-jay attack against those people. I guess Urology people and the ObGyn people have a  lot of beef btw them in some rather incorrect political way or such.

Hmmm..

I wanna go bck home. I wanna be in comfort zone, not to think of work at all. Even if it were for just a few days! *crosses fingers* I want my leave form to be signed and approved!

Im doing HDA calls now. 5-6 patients, all tubed, all dying. Im dying! It's literally an ICU. Hourly monitoring, hourly everything. It sux. But Im learning heaps.

Colbie Caillat.. Turn Your lights Down Now. The live version with Bob Marley. I like!

Why dont we ever learn? Why did I choose to believe the unbelievable and fall prey again. Hhmmm... not gonnna happen again.

I wwwaannnnaaa goooooo baccckkkk hhhoommmeee!
Comprende big guy?

Mummy and Daddy will be married for 30 years (I think!) come 27th January!!! Happy Anniversary ya'lll (yes, they read my blog sporadically) Amazing, you've been great parents...(to a certain degree :D) And I love ya'll so much! Many more lovely, crazy years to come!

Logging off. Much love.

moo moo?

C Novim Godam!

Posted by anandini at 09:45 PM on January 21, 2010.

Happy New Year all!

I sense good things this time, I always do in fact.

This year, I'l be done with HOship. Lotsa breaktroughs. Lotsa new experiances.

Things to do this year:

1. Earn more money. Yes, I do not earn enough. I need to earn more money.

2. Complete HOship, and move bck to KL. I've had enough of stayin away from home. I wanna be back again.

3. To be a better doctor. Life long process, I know. And lotsa areas I need to grasp soon.

4. Complete my MRCOG Part I. At least, by September. Goals in life makes u strive harder to get em accomplished.

5. To love and be loved. Ditto!

6. Stop being an ass, and rekindle ol friendships. Ive lost contact on many people, some relatives. So, ya..that's gotta change.

7. Go slow on alco and care for the liver. And perfecting perfect.

8. Ukriane Peeps reunion! Honestly ya'll.. we need this!

9. Do more as a daughter. Too much to elaborate here. Feel the gist.

10. Be a better person, as a whole. Run slow on that temper and cursing. To be confident and feel on top of the world again.

This post is too serious, even for me to handle.

In short, Happy New Year all. Make that change. Honestly, this is a mental note to myself. Just myself.

Much love.

moo moo?

Happy New Year!

Posted by anandini at 09:08 PM on December 30, 2009.

Im on call on New Year's Eve. I think that is as suxy as it can get. Everyone will be down for the customary new year's eve party, and I'll be slaving being on call. Sunny Boy even called from his captain phone.. aaahhh, yucky man.

So, Surgery's kinda ok. Not too bad. Just gotta control the lazer-ness and stop messing with people. But sometimes, it's really hard to get so pissed. I dun remember being so obnoxious as a first poster when I was one. Nowadays, most of them are such pain, evrywhere! Like hellooo... hhmmm. Nevermind, dun even wanna get started on who's what.

Mummy's back from India with lotsa goodies for me. Me is happy!

It's nice to see the whole family 'getting together' in Facebook. It kinda makes up for all those times we've miss being around for occasions and such. There's just so much slough sometimes, it's hard to even see but I guess once we've somehow overcome our differences, it's a-ok. I know for one, that we cousins are gotta stick tight to each other. The chief of all cuckoonees is now married, but Im gonna be around for ya'll.

Speakin of which, yeah.. Sunny Boy is now married. His wedding was so overwhelming, we coudnt stop crying tears of joy. Vani looked so pretty that day, it's breath taking. Congratulations ya'll..!! Start popping babies!

I wanna be home for New Year's Eve

Im gonna be starting my Plastic Surgery rotation come Jan 1st. It's not too bad from what Ive heard. Just gotta read up a lil and hope all goes well.

Spoke to Kanch after so long today. Really miss her. Great that she's doing well now. We'll meet for a copla beers eh, Kanch!

I dun like the flu which is bugging me now

Happy New Year ya'll.. May '10 bring in as much happiness as the happy god can shower upon. Much love!

moo moo?

Leavin on a Myvi.. which is like a jetplane!

Posted by anandini at 08:04 AM on November 10, 2009.

So, I'll be heading back home today. Armed with a referal letter for IJN and a month's supply of Plavix. Hopefully I'll be both a good daughter and a doctor! Yeah,...

And on a different note, guess who kicked Muppet U's ass...!!! Woohoooo... CHELSEA! CHELSEA! For once it was good Monday Blues!!!

It hurts so much to leave u for a week, u do know Ive gotta do this kan. I'll be back before u can even spell...I dunno, a major disease which is hard to spell! LOML!!!!

Oh but Im so lazy to drive down.... dammit!

But I cant wait to see MooMoo!!!!

Ok, mixed feelings. Yes I know, Im sometimes BiPolar.

Via is a great houseman in the making. She's extraordinarily hardworking. She doesnt talk back like some foolish 1st posters Ive come to know in the OnG Dept in MHPP. She's learning fast and everyone's startin to love her! Way to go boo!!! I told u so!!!

Ok. Need to go shower, pack and go!!

Love u Boo!!

1 moo moo-ed

I love my Daddy!

Posted by anandini at 04:39 PM on November 8, 2009.

58/Indian/Male

NKMI

Non-smoker, Occasional Alcohol Intake

Allergic to Penicillin, PCM, Sulphur containing drugs

Past Surgical Hx: Ulnar Nerve release 2007

Generally well.

Been complaining of slight chest discomfort upon climbing at least 2 flights of stairs. No SOB

NYHA I

No chest pain.

ADL Independent.

No known risk factors.

 

RP, LFT, FBC: perfect. No dyslipidaemia

ECG: SR, no acute ischaemic changes

ECHO: NAD

Stress Test: Not elaborated, but depressions (unsure of which leads) was informed over the phone

Angiogram: LAD 80% Narrowed. Diffuse.

 

I saw life pass right thru of me. I was angry, it being so unfair. I was cool, I wasnt irrational. I was still positive this could not be the last straw.

Right after the angio, he was told the only option was a by-pass.

3 days ago, the CTC Surgeon calls him up and said, it'll be angioplasty instead.

Miracles do happen.

As scary as it may sound, and as sureal it may be, I was not about to just sit back and watch the events unfold in front of me. This is one man who's gonna be actively managed.

He was so worried, Mummy said he was so down and almost did nothing around. But now he's back to singing and cooking and running around with Moo Moo, Im just so overwhelmed.

He made me medically qualified. Ive saved a lot of people, yes I have. And Ive brought a lot of lives in this world. And this is one man Im gonna make live, way beyond his prime.

It is indeed hard to digest. How a perfectly fit man can get his LAD narrowed so badly. His cholestrol level is so acceptable and there weren't any risk factors to pin point an early clue.

Well, it has happened. And the whole family's taking it positively. He's got enough lovin to last him forever.

My Daddy's gonna be fit and stong forever.

I'll be heading home this week, and will look into things and ensure him only the best.

 

On a different note, Ive completed my 3rd posting in ObGyn. It has been one year of me working.

I wouldnt say Ive learnt a lot, I could have done better. But Ive definitely learnt much.

Im thinkin of sitting for the MRCOG part 1. No harm.

It feels nice to be blogging again. It feels like a huge chunk of me has been deleted, not blogging. And there's just so much to say.

Well, take care now and be well.

Much love.

moo moo?

Yay! 6 more days!

Posted by anandini at 08:32 PM on July 1, 2009.

I feel like my body's above to degenerate and fall apart. Lactic acid accumulation, esp in my calf muscles are unbearable. Yes, post-call. And literally, not dramatically.

Oh but it'll just be another day, before I'll be driving back home. Bliss..

Much belated.. but, better late than never. CONGRATS DR VIDYA CHARIYA!!!!! You've made it, you've made us all so proud. You know you'll make a marv doctor!!! Finally, a reality!! A begining of a very noble journey!! Love you loads...!

Im imagining us shopping for groceries at Tesco, and it's getting me all excited!!!

Oh, and looks like there are more of us around. Ive made some lovely friends. And it's uber cool!!! Speakin of which, there are instead certain friends who's gone way down...but then again me duns care!! U wont get arnd far....just keep that in mind!

Ok, food's here. Im gonna have dinner and sleep.

Much love!

moo moo?

Hhmmm

Posted by anandini at 09:30 PM on June 13, 2009.

Shit has happened. Shit always happens. Its simply inevitable. Somehow, somewhat.

Somehow, everyone's feelings matter more abundantly more than mine ever will. Denied, I know. But it's pretty obvious.

I was supposed to for Sive's house warming today, but it somehow dint matter as Susie Mummy had an asthma attack. Hope she's well. And hope Sive understands.

Ok, off bck to being lonely.

Much love. 

moo moo?

Dum Di da dum...

Posted by anandini at 07:50 PM on June 3, 2009.

Time's zooming past nowadays. Which is a very good thing, indeed.

So my days in Ortho are coming to an end. Soon, it'll be raging hormones and PMSing women in Obs N Gyne. Oh, and the bosses are nightmarish, just as in all other gyne dept around. Sux.. Im not lookin forward to it. But Im gonna pull through somehow, it was, as a matter of fact, one of my favourite subjects back in Med School. So, yeah.. I'll survive, somehow.

So, the past few days has been nice. We've been driving down to Nibong Tebal to meet up wit a darl who came down fr Subang! It was lovely.. Always be my teacher, and me loves her so much. Happiness and love!

Oh, and someone recently found out about it. Accidently, but deliberately all the same, she found out. Which is all good, as she's so close to me and I love her to bits, and was really wanting to finally tell her!! So yay!!!

And so, been pretty disturbed later. I mean, it took so much of me to finally get over it, and grow as a person again. And then, he calls. Hhmmm... apologetic. But, it's all numb. I dont even know what is there to feel anymore. After what has happened, every word he utters denies believing. Simple as that. Do not judge me, but if you were once in my shoes, you'll truly comprehend as well. I just cant. I dont want to. Although it's only humane,.. hhmmm, somehow, no it's not. But I just cant. Karma's a bitch, you've learnt. This will be the one thing, I'll never be able to forgive. Forgotten, totally. But not forgaven.

Ish.

And so, this is me ranting. No, Im not washing my dirty laundry out in the public. This is simply me voicing out. If you, you and you were to somehow read it.. then good for you. Mission accomplised. As speaking to fake retards like you is such a waste of good oxygen. So, here goes. I know word's been going around... 'Why'd they do it?', 'They shouldn't have'..'They were so rude..' I dont know what that low-cow-brain person has been speakin of around, but here's my gist. If your very own were to verbally attack and accuse YOUR dad of the unknowns, Im pretty convinced you would have done the same. You should have been there to understand this. So, please stop judging what my brother and I did. To me, I'll deem it sanity. And it was perfectly called for. Once again, karma's a bitch. We really dont need these kinda people. And if you'd rather go on and on, mesmerized by mutton meat and forth.. jst leave my family out of it. For as long as Ive known, my Dad's been the one who's been keeping the family strong. So dont you even dare think bad of him. Dont you even dare. Screw you, you and you! You're all horrible people, and you damn rite know it. In fact, horrible's too mild of an adjective.

Oh what the fish.

Wooozaaaahhh-ed.

On a lovelier and happier note. It's only another 33 days!!!!!!! Ecstatic.. the one person. Will always be... yay!!!! Yeah, not many know yet. So... yeah.

Ive made lovely frens at Ortho. And it's been great. To Sive and Sara who'll be leaving the jing bang soon, it's been marv guys. Ya'll are talented doctors. Ya'll be great!

I need a haircut. Teacher, game? Yes, she cuts my hair :D

Amazing what someone said to me earlier in the week. Totally made my day. Her daughter scored marvelously in the recent SPM, and she told me...'Anan, it must have been you. You were her ultimate inspiration' Wow, Im truly honored. Lovely things like this go a long way.

Ok, so this entry may seem a bit alienated for many. Im sorry, I just had a lot to release without actually tearing down Rome. Excuse the limited transperancy.

Ok. Much love ya'll.

LOML... you knw you're it. This is for eternity. VCS...!

moo moo?